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Thank you, 2011

2011-12-31T22:14:00.001+07:00

Actually it is not appropriate to say thank you to a year. Considering it cannot talk or hear or do nothing but walking. Even I seldom say thank you to my own parents that have helped me through a lot of things during my 18 years of life. But, hey, those 18 years would be nothing if I'm missing one year.

Ok.

So I'm writing this just before 2012. It's NYE. And what tense should I use for describing 2011? Present? Or past?

I'll just go with past, then.

So 2011 taught me so many lessons. I graduated from high school. I still cannot believe I survived those three killing years. I got accepted in one of the best universities here in Indonesia. Named after the country itself: Universitas Indonesia. I got accepted in English Literature major. Which was not my first choice but lately I feel so lucky for being here. Then I got accepted in UIMUN Club!! I also passed the first phase for NYMUN selection (even though I failed on the second phase). And my team and I got the first place for Petang Kreatif, one of the most prestigious competitions in my faculty. Great, ayte?

One thing that is not that great is this pizza I've ordered for more than 40 mins hasn't come yet. Good thing is, I'll have another free pizza next time I order. But, still.

That was just a small recap for the achievements (HAHAHAHA) I had in 2011.

2011 also the year of mistakes and guilts. But I'm not gonna talk about it since Lebaran has cleared all of those kinda sins so, yeah.

This is the very last post of my 2011 archive. No resolution. I'm tired of making list. I think I'll just dream some more. That's the very root of success.

Happy New Year, everyone!

*still waiting for my pizza to come*

Sent from Wida's BlackBerry®

Song: Go and catch a falling star

2011-12-12T23:39:00.001+07:00

Go and catch a falling star,
Get with child a mandrake root,
Tell me where all past years are,
Or who cleft the devil's foot,
Teach me to hear mermaids singing,
Or to keep off envy's stinging,
And find
What wind
Serves to advance an honest mind.

If thou be'st born to strange sights,
Things invisible to see,
Ride ten thousand days and nights,
Till age snow white hairs on thee;
Thou, when thou return'st, wilt tell me
All strange wonders that befell thee,
And swear
No where
Lives a woman true and fair.

If thou find'st one, let me know;
Such a pilgrimage were sweet.
Yet do not; I would not go,
Though at next door we might meet.
Though she were true when you met her,
And last till you write your letter,
Yet she
Will be
False, ere I come, to two or three.

John Donne (1572-1631)

True.

2011-10-01T09:11:00.000+07:00

Best Regards,
Shofwatul Widad

POTTERMORE!

2011-09-27T02:16:00.000+07:00

Yay so I got into Pottermore! I received the welcome email last Saturday which was only 6 days away from October, when the public registration will be held. Most of my friends are still waiting for their owls... I mean, what's the point of early registration if you get into it just one day away from the public regis? Duh.
Anyway, so far everything is good on Pottermore. A lot of additional informations that have never been mentioned by JK. Rowling anywhere. I feel like knowing everything about this stuff and becoming Rowling's best friend :)
Each user will be sorted into a house and guess what mine is....

YES I AM A PROUD SLYTHERIN! :D

But we’re not bad people. We’re like our emblem, the snake: sleek, powerful, and frequently misunderstood.

My Pottermore username is PotionNimbus199, bytheway. Feel free to add :D

So it's 2.15 in the morning and I have a class at 12 PM so...I'll surf around! Oh and Gossip Girl season premiere will be in about 5 hrs!

Night, people!

It's all about revenge, bby ;)

2011-09-22T14:02:00.002+07:00

Hi, missing me? This is probably my least productive year. I write nothing. Bad.

So, last post was about my happiness for getting into the early-entry list for Pottermore and knowing that my most favorite band of all time was going to have a concert in Indonesia. Well, up until now my welcome email from Pottermore has never been arrived. But, hey! I watched Panic! At The Disco last Tuesday!

I was a bit confused. Should I come? Should I not? The price was a bit expensive but for a festival, actually it's quite good. I wasn't sure about going until one day before the festival, I finally decided to go buy the ticket at Grand Indonesia, which was about 1,5 hrs from Depok. I had a class so I went to Grand Indonesia to buy the ticket at 7. I went by motorcycle because it was late and I was worried about having no public transportation to get me back to Depok. So I arrived at 8.30 --cause I took the wrong way. fuck governor to put motorcycles in a different way with cars-- and went straight to the ticket box and found out that it was closed. I was like gonna cry but I didn't cause I still had a long way to go. I decided to buy the ticket on the spot and yay! I got it. The yellow one, straight to the stage.

I met Levi and some new friends. We were equally excited. Since P!atd was the second performer at that night and I knew nothing about Yellowcard --except the only one, haha--, I was a bit calmed and watched the performance of Yellowcard quietly. When it came to P!atd, I stood up and screamed a lot. A guy in the front row was screaming about wanting Bad Religion to be on stage asap, not P!atd and say something about pussy and sucker and I was like staring at my friend and we laughed.

The performance was epic. And I got my revenge to the guy who screamed. I hit his head -accidentally-.

I still can't believe I met Brendon and Ian and Spencer and Dallon and omg Ian was hillarious. He tried to make the audience laugh everytime. And his ass was so slim. LOL THIS IS SO UNIMPORTANT.

I want to upload some pics but they weren't that good cause the crew didn't allow us to bring DSLR camera and I only had this friend's pocket cam and the results were not that good. I also recorded some videos. Yes. The vids are also bad cause I recorded while jumping haha.

That's it. Bye!HEY

PATD and Pottermore!

2011-08-04T18:29:00.000+07:00

Wow it's been a month!! I wasn't really busy but there are times when all you want to do in front of computer is youtube-ing and twitter-ing. Actually I was quite free past one month. It's just, you know, some stories you tell, some stories you don't. But now, knowing that I've missed one month without writing anything, I feel so /holey/. LOL
So what's new? I registered yesterday to Universitas Indonesia and finally had my KTM done! :))
And last night, I heard a news about PATD coming to Jakarta this September with Yellow Card. What the bug? I was like rolling in my bed crying. And I did tweet anything related to it with capslock on. Anything. But the only thing that made me quite frustrated was the promoter who's gonna bring them here was the one who's also gonna bring Linkin Park here. Which came to the conclusion that I could only wish the ticket price wouldn't be so expensive. I'm gonna pray so hard for this. I don't really care about Yellow Card. Well that doesn't mean I don't like them but PATD is my priority now. I don't wanna miss another chance to see them perform in my hometown. I'm 17 going on 18 and I have already gotten into a great university here so I think watching PATD is a kinda proper reward my parents should give to me :)
Missing something?
The title says PATD and Pottermore! so let's just get into the Pottermore thing.
As you all know, from July 31st to August 6th, there will be a clue each day on http://pottermore.com. Each clue leads to a magical quill that can help you to get the early access to Pottermore. I guess you've guessed me trying to solve the clue? Yep. From the first day, I've been trying to solve the clue but the first two days I missed the clue. Apparently the time they reveal the clue is random. So here's a tip: try to search or google when will the clue out. I did this and this is kinda worked. Well maybe not the exact time but you can still, at least, prepare before the clue is out. Pottermore insider (http://insider.pottermore.com) used to give the exact time of the clue but not anymore. I also did try on the 3rd day (the clue was the difference point of Gryffindor and Slytherin on Quidditch and we had to multiply it by....wow I forget...the clue was so long I can hardly remember it) but unfortunately my phone browser wouldn't allow me to levitate that pen, so I, again, missed the magicall quill.
Yesterday, a friend of mine told me that the clue would be revealed around 9 am est which means 9 pm here. So I got into the website at 9 pm but found out that the clue hasn't been revealed yet (I've told you about the accuracy). But not long after that, about 10-15 minutes, when I refreshed the page, the clue finally was revealed. It said, "How many students take part in Triwizard Tournament? Multiply this by 28."
I was so glad that I didn't miss this thing because this clue was so damn easy!! Rowling herself has announced that the clue for day 4 to 7 were gonna be easier than the first three but I didn't think the gap between the 3rd and 4th clue was this big!! I got easily enter the web (without having to go through the overwhelming) and finally submit my data. My browser did close right after I got into the sixth step. I was quite frustrated because that was the last step before the online registration done but fortunately everything went well after I restored it. So, yeah, I'm magical! Meet PotionNimbus199 :)

Have you registered to Pottermore? Today's clue (the fifth) will be out around 4.30 pm - 8 pm BST. Prepare yourself, Potterhead!

Best Regards,
Shofwatul Widad

Good Bye, June :)

2011-06-30T10:28:00.003+07:00

I'm closing this month with the biggest smile I have ever made.

Alhamdulillahirabbil 'alamin. This month is tiring yet exciting. So glad that most of my friends also passed the test :)

University of Indonesia, here I come! :)

Dear June

2011-06-14T13:49:00.000+07:00

Hi there, Nickasaur. Hope you're okay I'm using your song as the title of this post.

So, where have I been? I'm not trying to runaway from inter web. In fact, I'm getting closer to anyone in inter web. Business goes well and everything seems right except for one thing: university. You know I've been rejected by some universities... That was sucks and kinda brought me down. The fact that I have to face some entrance tests freaked me out.

So yesterday I came to the doctor because lately I feel hard for breathing. A bit worried because my grandmother used to have asthma. It turns out to be the effect of these things. I was so stressed................

Now I can only pray for the best result of SNMPTN.

Wish. Me. A. Good. Luck.

Best Regards,
Shofwatul Widad

Recent Updates

2011-05-20T06:15:00.003+07:00

Good news come with bad news.

So the good news is, I've graduated high school! I feel so lucky for surviving high school and I can say nothing but Alhamdulillah.

And the bad news is, I failed on SNMPTN Undangan and PBS UGM.

Have to work harder for SNMPTN Tulis. FHUI is waiting for me :))

Happy go lucky girl,

Widoxy.

You either love it or guess you don't

2011-05-03T07:46:00.002+07:00

My previous post was kinda lousy. It's been awhile since I post something good and worth reading last. LOL. I guess I've lost my sense of writing since Twitter is in the air. Wait. I mean, in the internet.

I didn't mean to blame on Twitter but really, I'm into singkat-padat-jelas-writing lately. Even tho sometimes it's not that padat&jelas but really, if you can make a meaningful sentences in less than 140 words, then you're awesome. Not to mention that everyone who uses shorten link to their longer-than-140-words tweet is not using Twitter properly. But that's the use of those kind of twitter web-supporters, ayte?

It's my 3rd year in Twitter and I just found some unique people who are related to me in any kind of my interests lately. I met some communities, there. And some famous people, or some people who know some famous people. Every single character can be found. Mulai dari anak ABG labil, adult who tweets a lot in anytime, announcer, anak ABG yang sok-gak-labil-padahal-labil, sampe anak kuliah yang ngatain adeknya labil padahal dia juga labil pun, ada. *no offense, kk ^^

WAIT. Shouldn't I be paid for promoting Twitter, Ev?

*lol

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I can't wait for the graduation day. It's about 14 more days. I've my own Kebaya, it's being sewed right now and will be done approximately in less than one week. Will share the way it looks as soon as it's done. Or, maybe, after the graduation day.

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In case you wonder what this is, this has NO relation with Cobra Starship at all. All you have to do is click the play button and watch it. If you like it, continue to the next part until it's done.

My recommended YouTube video for this week! :D

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Oh, and one more. Panic! At The Disco has just premiered their Ready To Go video. Check it on their Facebook Page!

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Nah, I guess this blog is just a place for some news. Lameeeeeeeeeeee >.<

Good bye, Rangers!!!

MAY DAYS

2011-05-03T07:23:00.002+07:00

Not saying May Day, but it's May! My second most crucial month in 2011 after April. National examination has passed and everything went good. Last thing to do is pray for the best result :)

It's May! It's May!

What I have for this month:

1-28 May : SNMPTN preparation

16 May : Announcement of National Examination's result

18 May : Announcement of SNMPTN Undangan and PBS UGM's results

19 May : Graduation Day

31 May - 1 June : SNMPTN

HURRAY. I THOUGHT NATIONAL EXAM WAS THE LAST

Sunnies

2011-04-06T22:35:00.004+07:00

Good evening, fellow readers :)

So, my cat had a mis-birth. Yeah, the whole family's fault to kept him out of cage. It was the saddest thing of the week.

Wait, nothing could beat this one: less than two weeks to National Examination. Yep. That is probably the saddest thing of the week. Or, even worse, the saddest thing of the next two weeks.

Despite all pressure of the National Examination's thing, I bought this kind of thing:

Darren Criss's sunglasses!

I've been wanting this thing for so long and thanks to Galih who made me having it :D

It's not a present, anyway. She made me spending 100k for the whole thing (include the optical lenses). And, for any of you who doesn't know who Darren Criss is, just google about him and find out his best shot. He's in Glee, actually :))

Ok, I haven't said anything about Glee, which is currently having my heart, or Darren Criss, who has been having mine since AVPM and now he's showing up in Glee as a gay guy. That is just simply awesome.

Almost midnight, I'll be having Math tryout tomorrow, and SNMPTN tryout after, and I also have to bike to school tomorrow. Guess it's the best time for saying goodbye? I'll see you around the end of April saying the whole exam things are fine.

See you, rangers!

Ready to Go.

2011-03-27T19:32:00.002+07:00

So, I just wanna say break a leg for class of 2011. Less than a month to National Examination. Go, Fight, Win!

Kisses,

Doxy.

credit goes to ZaraZombie <3

And after all these things...

2011-03-24T23:59:00.003+07:00

I write this down at exactly 00:00 in March 25. Wait, let me check my Facebook account to see who's having birthday.

*flop*

Oh, happy birthday, Gerry!

Back to topic. See the widget I put on the right side of my blog? The one who's counting down for the national exam? It turns out that it's 23 days more to national exam and I am flippin unready. On Wednesday I just had finished my School Exam which was quite hectic. Totally. I screwed on Math and Biology. The rest? Only God knows how.

Naff said with the school things. Vices & Virtues has been released. You can get your own Deluxe Edition in here.

I was going to write something but then Twitter distracted me. I'll keep it for later.

Good night, owls.

Vices & Virtues Steam

2011-03-15T04:37:00.002+07:00

I was having a tight sleep then when my phone knocked then I saw some messages from Twitter mentioned that Vices & Virtues made it on trending, and P!ATD have premiered their entire album on Facebook. So here I am, listening to Get Me Out of My Mind, and sharing this news! I am so stoked!!

If you want to hear it, too, here's the link:

Vices & Virtues Stream

Enjoy it, guys! Lemme know your favorite song --you can drop it on the shout box, I close comments :p Mine is Hurricane, so far.

I'm getting out. Have to be at school in hours so, bye!

The Happiest Girl of The Day,
Doxy

強いてください

2011-03-13T00:32:00.002+07:00

I'm dedicating this post to all victims in Japan earth quake last Friday. And I'm using google translator so yeah, cmiiw.

強いてください。を信じて自分で生き残ることができることを生きている。勇敢してください。あなたは、新しいを構築することができますように。泣いてはいけない。ため、世界中の人々はあなたのために祈っている。

我々は日本のために祈ります。

Shortbread

2011-03-02T20:07:00.002+07:00

Welcoming March happily. After changing my PATD Calendar into March, I was kinda excited, knowing that Vices and Virtues will be released in less than a month. YAYNESS. And here are some important dates of my i-wish-i-had-a-normal-one life:

7-11 March: End term test.
16-18 March: School examination for non national examination's subjects.
21-23 March: School examination for national examination's subjects.
22 March: Vices and Virtues release.

I should have been feeling grateful for, at least, having Vices and Virtues release in the middle of the second roughest month in my life.

I bet March would be totally freaking me out. But wait until April.

Having a good day, fellas? I'm downloading Pretty Little Liars 1x19 right now. With this lame connection, there must be a 12-or-more hours spent for downloading.

And I'm working on my new header. About to change my blog name. For no reason. It just doesn't seem cool anymore :p

Be cool in the forty-six-days-to-go-to-national-examination,

WIDOXY A.K.A ROX MIDSUMMER

The Ballad of Mona Lisa

2011-02-14T06:46:00.002+07:00

Selamat pagi.

Hari ini santai sekali, I can even go online for a while :) Mulai hari ini ujian praktek, dan kelas saya mulai jam setengah 11. OHH I CAN SMELL FREEDOM *sniff*

Jadi, kenapa repot-repot menulis pagi ini? Kenapa gak siap-siap buat ujian praktek nanti? Hehe I realize it's been a while since writing-a-lot time in this blog. Anyway, have I told you about the euphoria of Panic! At The Disco's new album, Vices & Virtues in my life? Seriously, my only playlist for these days was patd's playlist, include its new single, The Ballad of Mona Lisa.

Here's the video. I was the first 500 viewers when I watched it :D

Issues

2011-02-11T19:03:00.002+07:00

Hello February.

It's amazing that I could spend a time to write in such a hectic week. Awal Februari, saya masih merasa lega karena tryout MKKS Jakarta Timur akhirnya selesai. Seenggaknya, saya masih bisa leha-leha untuk sejenak setelah pusing memikirkan jawaban dari tryout Fisika yang ternyata gak ketemu jawabannya sampe kemarin.

Setelah jeda seminggu, secara mendadak saya harus ketemu lagi dengan tryout. Kali ini tryout dari dinas DKI Jakarta which, at first, I thought it must be harder. SO, without any preparation, saya melenggang maju. Tryout dimulai hari Rabu kemarin dan berakhir Jumat ini. Dengan kondisi satu hari dua pelajaran, saya mutlak belajar seadanya. Masih, dalam keadaan sering bolos bimbel.

Minggu depan udah mulai ujian praktek. Seneng, sih, mulainya jam setengah 10 pagi, cuma tetep berat. Sampe sekarang belum nyiapin untuk praktek kimia. Saya blank total. Semua ingatan tentang ujian praktek kimia tiba-tiba kehapus gitu aja..................

Minggu depannya, tryout lagi.

Minggu depannya, *tarik nafas dalem-dalem* engga ada apa-apa sih, cuma berdoa aja saya masih sempet update :p

Anyway, akhir-akhir ini saya sering memikirkan tentang satu hal, yang gak ada ujungnya. Saya udah sempet survey ke beberapa temen, dan jawaban mereka semua beda-beda.

Jadi, sebenernya kebetulan sama takdir itu sama apa enggak, sih?

Kalo kebetulan yang terjadi secara berulang namanya apa? and so on and so on and so on........................

*mati*

Words.

2011-01-23T21:01:00.000+07:00

Hay~~

Just want to give some news here.

First, SAYA DITERIMA JADI PANITIA POTENSI 2011!!! Yiha!!
Oh, kalian bahkan belum tau saya ikutan daftar ya? Baiklah, begini ceritanya. Desember kemarin, POTENSI2011 open recruitment buat beberapa divisi krn mereka mau reshuffle kepanitiaan. I sent my CV, had the interview session, then got accepted! Brilliant!

Oh, and anyway, yang belum tau POTENSI2011 itu apa, check it out on Twitter: @POTENSI2011 :)

Second, along with the previous news, Selasa kmrn, panic! at the disco ngasih teaser dr single terbarunya, The Ballad Of Mona Lisa!!!!!! That would be my happiest day of the week! Mereka juga ngumumin kalo single bakal rilis 1 Februari dan Vices and Virtues --their new album-- will be released on March 29, EVERYWHERE. It's official!

WOOHOO.

Check @patdonline's timeline for getting the snippet of the song :)

Third, setelah hiatus sekian lama dari dunia perbimbelan, kemarin akhirnya saya memberanikan diri untuk muncul didepan umum, ngasih tau orang orang kalo saya gak males. Hihi.

Ujian nasional di depan mata!!!!

Eh, ngurusin try out dulu deh :p

salam galau ala anak SMA,
wida.

Kafilah Menggonggong

2011-01-16T20:47:00.000+07:00

udah januari. no. ga akan ngomongin resolusi yang menye menye. jadi mau bicara apa?

sedih. produktivitas menurun. bukan hanya sekolah. tapi kualitas tulisan di jejaring sosial. bisanya menikmati. biasanya memberi.

urusan masa depan masih buram. ibarat tv masih hitam putih. layar cembung. antena belum terpasang. cuma ada semut. apa yg mau ditonton? begitulah.

lalu apalagi? album baru panic! at the disco meluncur bulan maret. first single katanya januari ini. tapi kapan?

saya galau.

2010-12-18T10:35:00.000+07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ROTTEN HUB!

Countdown

2010-11-20T21:10:00.002+07:00

five months away from national examination. feel smart enough, D?

There's something about....

2010-11-18T18:36:00.008+07:00

I haven't told you that my parents are now doing Hajj in Mecca. Been a week &I extremely miss 'em. School's stuff are getting crazier. Haven't done the remedial for Biology, the last day is tomorrow but I prefer to write on my blog. It's two weeks away from the final semester examination. And it's also five months away from the national examination and all the university tests. I'm becoming pessimist about the university tests..........................................

&Life's getting harder for my pets. Bubble is kinda weird these days. She's hungry in every second &start to walk downstairs for cockroach-hunting. Bad Bubble bad.

&I have 6 baby hamsters now. The first four were born on Sunday and the second two were born LAST NIGHT. 13 hamsters are in the house now &taking care of those hamsters are quite.... difficult. Literally.

the first four babies

&&Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows part I are gonna be released in cinemas tomorrow! YAYNESS! I plan to watch the movie on Sunday with my cousins. Can hardly wait ♥

found this pic on tumblr. so me.

Got a plan already for this weekend? ;)

P.S.: Bubble's rolling on the bed while I wrote about her. She's kinda sensitive, I guess :p

P.P.S.: Now searching for Persilangan Resiprok for Biology task. Desperately need the example of that issue &haven't found any ;____;

LDKS & Jambore 2010 ++

2010-11-06T18:20:00.006+07:00

Hello.

The title explains you everything. This post is about Sahaya Pusatya Saka's last event: LDKS&Jambore 2010 which was held on October 29th-30th at Wisma Atlit Cilodong, West Java.

Am gonna post in bilingual cause there will be so many curses in this post.........

Peace yo. Kidding.

Gue cuma terlalu malas untuk menulis dalam bahasa Inggris.

Here we go!

Day 1 : October 29th

As you guys have known (or not) that day was my birthday, gue berusaha untuk sampe ke sekolah dengan se-cool mungkin. Berhubung hari itu gue gak akan pulang ke rumah, gue minta jemput sama Catur buat berangkat bareng ke sekolah, abis itu motornya Catur titip rumah Ridho baru deh ke sekolah bareng jalan kaki. Tapi setelah gue pikir pikir, mendingan gue minta anterin ke sekolah dulu baru Catur yang ke rumah Ridho. Males juga jalannya kan? *tuman* Pagi-pagi, pas Catur sampe, gue mengharapkan ucapan selamat ulang tahun berhubung dia orang pertama yang gue temuin di hari itu selain orangtua dan adik gue. Tapi dia malah ngeluh gara-gara gue susah naik motornya dia....... #1birthdayfailure

Sampe di sekolah di cengin sama Ginanjar katanya gue kayak suami istri.......... #2birthdayfailure

Setelah itu sempet bete juga sih sama anak-anak SPS gara gara mereka ngecengin gue lagi ulang tahun. But it was fun, though. Soalnya gak berapa lama, Indri sama Lita nyamperin &ngasih kado. My first birthday present!! Mereka ngasih gue ini:

Upacara pelepasan LDKS&Jambore, gue jadi protokolnya, lagi-lagi akan berurusan dengan Bu Ida. Gue agak heran, udah kedua kalinya setiap gue ulangtahun pasti berurusan sama Bu Ida. Tahun lalu mimpin tadarus, tahun ini jadi protokol *wondering*

&&Pak Didi got me in the moment I was being the protocol:

Then take off to Cilodong! Gue satu tronton sama Fifi dan, unfortunately, sekumpulan anak kelas sepuluh yang bisa dibilang, kurang teratur. Gue jadi bete sendiri karena mereka gakmau disuruh ngerapihin duduknya. Secara gue sama Fifi ga kebagian tempat. Mau ditaro dimana ini pantat? Yang bikin kesel lagi, tronton belum jalan, mereka udah makanin chiki chiki sama snack yang mereka bawa dari rumah. Sampahnya juga dibuang sembarangan. Padahal tronton belum jalan. *gondok hati* #4birthdayfailure

Sampe di Cilodong, disambut dengan kenyataan bahwa tronton yang ngangkut Capsis belum sampe di sekolah dan masih ada 2 tronton yang ketinggalan karena mogok. Walhasil, kembali menjadi protokol upacara pembukaan dengan peserta yang tidak lengkap. #5birthday failure

Acara ngaret. Untuk kedua kalinya gue merasa gagal sebagai seksi acara. #6birthdayfailure

Pas makan siang ala tentara, rasanya nikmat banget ngeliatin adik-adik kelasku tercinta itu disiksa karena harus tiarap di tengah-tengah makan.

Acara berjalan cukup lancar sampai Magrib. Ya. Magrib. Saat dimana seorang guru tiba-tiba mengacaukan acara yang udah kita susun dan sedang kita laksanakan. Mau gak mau akhirnya games yang lagi kita lakuin di cancel. Cancel. Bukan delay. #7birthdayfailure

Kemudian api unggun juga ngaret. Gue *lagi-lagi sebagai protokol* udah males banget bawain acara malam itu. Mohon maaf adik-adik sekalian kalo acara api unggunnya agak garing. Saya capek banget *curhat*
Tapi di malam api unggun itu ada hiburan tersendiri untuk temen-temen SPS, adik-adik capsis dan Jambore. I won't tell the story here. It's an intern problem :p

Went to sleep at 1.30 am in the morning after cleaning the bathroom. Oh ya, kamar mandi untuk dua kamar dijadiin satu. Jadi, kamar mandi penghubung kamar anak OSIS dengan siswa Jambore malam itu kotor banget penuh lumpur dari sendal yang mereka bawa dari lapangan api unggun. Yang ngebersihin? Anak OSIS. Entah anak kelas sepuluhnya yang emang gatau diri apa mereka emang kurang dalam penglihatannya sehingga kotoran yang bikin kamar mandi segede gitu mampet enggak keliatan. #8birthdayfailure

Oh. Gue menghabiskan sisa hari ulangtahun gue dengan ngorek-ngorek pipa kamar mandi yang mampet dengan lumpur. Great.

Day 2 : October 30th

Setelah sebelumnya berjanji untuk bangun jam setengah 3 pagi untuk pagi akrab bersama capsis karena makrab gabisa dilakukan, all the girls broke the promise. Gue adalah orang ketiga yang bangun hari itu pada jam setengah 4 pagi. Ngaret satu jam dan langsung buru-buru ngebangunin capsis yang cewek kemudian ngumpul di ruang makan. Pas sampe ruang makan azan Subuh, jadilah capsis pada solat Subuh dulu terus OSIS nunggu di ruang makan. Gue lagi ngobrol sama Catur pas capsis selesai solat terus balik ke ruang makan. Gue dipanggil Fifi untuk pindah tempat duduk ke deket dia sama IGM karena mau ngomongin acara. Setelah itu ternyata Fifi manggil anak-anak capsis. Mereka berkerumun di sekeliling gue Fifi IGM dan tiba-tiba nyanyiin happy birthday.....................

DANG I WAS TOTALLY HAPPY AT THAT TIME &&THEY REALLY GOT ME CAUSE I SANG "HAPPY" AT THAT TIME WITHOUT KNOWING WHOM DID THEY SING THE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO. #3to100birthdayhappiness

Kemudian akhirnya makrab dilaksanakan setelah senam pagi saat siswa Jambore tanding futsal sama Garis karena kelakuan tak termaafkan mereka *not to mention anything here*

&&&OUTBOND!! OMG I was so excited tapi agak bete juga begitu tau rutenya pendek. But I played flying fox and screamed "FHUI 2011" :D

Gue jadi PJ capsis kelompok pertama sama Hafidz &&at the end of the outbond we took photos. Baju gue jadi basah karena dipeperin sama capsis............... But that was okay! ;)

Lunch &closing ceremony yang sempet bikin gondok, pembagian tronton yang masih ngeselin seperti semula. OMG Jambore kali ini emang sepertinya gagal, padahal ini proker terakhir SPS..... But I think we've done our best!

Sampai akhirnya kemarin, 1 November 2010 kita resmi lepas jabatan dan menyerahkan jabatan kita ke OSIS Baksyana Tira Saka. Ketua Humas dipegang Nanda (congrats!!) whom I know he would give a greater result than me :D

&&SPS janji sepuluh tahun lagi di tanggal yang sama dengan hari kita Sertijab, kita akan ketemu lagi di tempat yang sama untuk melihat satu sama lain yang udah sukses! Amin :)

Salam sukses selalu,
Mantan ketua humas,
Doxy kiyut!

A Letter

2010-10-31T20:44:00.000+07:00

Satu tahun.

Tiga ratus enam puluh lima hari.

Tapi satu tahun kali ini berbeda.
Kali ini bukan satu tahun, melainkan sebelas bulan yang kami anggap satu tahun.
Tiga ratus tiga puluh lima hari yang kami anggap satu tahun.

Ada yang mengatakan: "Tidak baik menunda-nunda hal penting."

Oleh karena itu, kami OSIS SAHANA SISYA PUJYATE SATYANAM SAPTA EKA, setelah bekerja bersama sama selama kurang lebih satu tahun, pada akhirnya besok akan menyerahkan jabatan kami kepada OSIS BAKSYA SISYA AGNYANYA NYAKRAWATI ANGGARA SAPTA EKA.

Time flies as the wind blows.

Secara personal, saya sedih. Tidak perlu diragukan. Satu tahun itu waktu yang singkat. Terlalu singkat untuk mengenal karakter satu sama lain. Terlalu singkat untuk menyukseskan program-program kerja yang sudah disusun sedemikian rupa. Terlalu singkat untuk diakhiri.

Dua hari satu malam LDKS memberikan saya pelajaran berharga. Bahwa sesungguhnya roda itu berputar. Bahwa sesungguhnya sebuah organisasi tidak akan ada artinya apabila tidak ada kaderisasi *thanks to Gina. Bahwa sesungguhnya ilmu yang kita miliki tidak akan ada artinya apabila tidak disampaikan ke orang lain. Bahwa sesungguhnya teman itu nyata, dan selalu akan nyata. Bahwa sesungguhnya kenangan akan orang-orang tersayang tidak akan penah hilang dari ingatan.

Saya siap untuk demisioner. Saya siap untuk melanjutkan pendidikan saya ke jenjang yang lebih tinggi. Saya siap untuk mengejar cita-cita.

Baksya Sisya Agnyana Nyakrawati Anggara Sapta Eka, apabila kalian membaca tulisan ini, ingat apa yang sudah kalian pelajari selama masa Capsis dan LDKS. Ingat pesan-pesan dari kami untuk kalian. Karena menjadi pendengar yang baik adalah kunci dari seorang pemimpin. Dan pengaplikasiannya akan menunjukkan seberapa baik pemimpin tersebut.

Sahana Sisya Pujyate Satyanam Sapta Eka, apabila kalian membaca tulisan ini, maka saya hanya ingin mengatakan bahwa ikatan ini tidak akan pernah lepas. Kejarlah cita-cita masing-masing karena tahun depan jaket almamater OSIS kita akan digantikan oleh jaket almamater universitas kita masing-masing.

Selamat berjuang.

Salam Demisioner,

Shofwatul Widad
Ketua Humas

Mimpi.

2010-10-12T21:27:00.002+07:00

Mid semester test has just finished and the result was kinda disappointing. Despite the fact that I failed on all Science subjects, I got 80 on English. Which was truly disappointing cause I knew I was able for getting 90 or even higher; I got 59 for Phy which was also surprising me cause I'd learned for more than 3 days -since I had known that my Math score would be such a catastrophe so I worked hard on Phy- and I still failed. And my Projective test was also failed. Some lines was missed to erase and I got it dirty. FML. Or, to be clearer, ~~FUCK MID SEMESTER TEST.~~

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Oh. Halo. Selamat pagi/ siang/ malam/ kapanpun Anda membaca post kali ini.

Saya mau bercerita sedikit. Tentang Mid Semester yang bisa dibilang gagal (which has been told completely to you all), dan tentang mimpi.

Setelah sibuk mencari umpatan yang pas untuk menggambarkan hasil mid semester kemarin, akhirnya saya mencari hal yang kira-kira bagus untuk ditampung bloggy *sok imut*. Dan kemudian, di tengah-tengah peng-update-an status twitter hari ini, saya mendapat ide untuk menuliskan tentang mimpi. Feeling familiar? Sebelumnya saya pernah nulis tentang cita-cita. Mungkin kali ini agak mirip. Namun tetap berbeda.

Mimpi. Sebenernya mimpi itu apasih? Menurut Wikipedia, Mimpi adalah pengalaman bawah sadar yang melibatkan penglihatan, pendengaran, pikiran, perasaan, atau indra lainnya dalam tidur, terutama saat tidur yang disertai gerakan mata yang cepat (rapid eye movement/REM sleep). Sedangkan menurut Kamus Bahasa Indonesia, mimpi adalah sesuatu yang terlihat atau dialami dalam tidur. Sama ya? Tapi menurut saya, mimpi itu gak cuma bisa dialami saat tidur aja. Sebenernya, mimpi itu lebih baik kalo dialami dalam keadaan terjaga. Karena dalam keadaan terjaga, kita bisa mengatur apa yang kita ingin mimpikan, dan kemana arah mimpi itu berikutnya.

Namun, hal yang membuat bermimpi sambil terjaga menjadi buruk adalah: Keinginan untuk membuat mimpi itu nyata bertabrakan dengan fakta yang menghadang kita untuk mewujudkan mimpi tersebut.

Sedih, rasanya.

Saya sedang mengalami hal ini. Saat mimpi saya melambung tinggi, kenyataan mendorong saya dan kemudian menjatuhkan saya sehingga saya harus membersihkan luka-luka dan melupakan mimpi itu sejenak. Sejenak kemudian saya melupakannya dan akhirnya merancang mimpi baru yang selanjutnya berakhir sama dengan mimpi yang sebelumnya.

Entah harus berkata apa.

The Dreamer,
Doxy

TER.

2010-10-01T19:25:00.002+07:00

current mood : super unstable
current song : double vision - 3OH!3

Hello.

I am currently feeling sick cause the mid semester test will be held on the next Monday. Physics: 4 chapters (the last one was taught this week, 4hours for a chapter), Religion subject: 3 chapters, Math: half chapter...................... (imagine how difficult integral is), Chemistry: 2 chapters, Biology: 2 chapters, Civics: 2 chapters. I'm driven nuts.

Maximum Loath

2010-09-12T09:49:00.002+07:00

Membuka post kali ini:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL FITRI 1431 H
Minal Aidin wal Faidzin

Lebaran cuy! Untuk kali ini gue mau menulis dengan bahasa Indonesia (most). Itu berarti................gue akan curhat panjang lebar. The reason why I love to speak in my mother tongue ♥

Lebaran kali ini gak ada hubungannya sama apa yang akan gue omongin. Dan gak ada hubungannya juga sama THR yang tiap tahun menurun. I'm almost 17; &menerima THR dari pintu ke pintu itu cuma ada di kamus anak SD. Walaupun pada kenyataannya gue sangat berat untuk tau kalo gue sudah besar dan tidak menerima THR lagi *cries*

Wait! Katanya gak ada hubungannya sama THR tapi kok diomongin? Mhaha.

I've just done bathing my cat. Oiya I haven't told you that I have one. Namanya Bubble. Bubble? Oh go laugh at me. Gue emang gak pinter ngasih nama. This one is too cheesy, ayte? Tapi gak mungkin ganti nama karena kalo mau ganti nama lagi harus ke City Hall sedangkan gue udah lama gak main The Sims 3......................... Gak ngerti? Okay get over it.

Ngerasa gak sih gue ngomongnya muter?

Efek dari hasrat tak tersampaikan untuk main di Dufan.

~~Shit.~~ Makin gak nyambung.

Kemarin (ya, beberapa hari yang lalu deh) di Twitter, hampir semua orang ngucapin selamat Idul Fitri 1431 H, minta maaf ke followernya secara global ataupun mention satu satu. And I had a problem with that. Ever thought that you must be somekind of special people if a friend of yours mentions you on twitter with a hashtag consists of your gang (lol) name? My used-to-be-bestfriend did that without mentioning my Twitter ID. I know gue mungkin terdengar terlalu melebih-lebihkan masalah. But seriously, if this one is not who have dumped me (doing a back-stab), gue gak akan ambil pusing. This way is too much...............Or not? Or is it just me who takes this thing too seriously?

Gue pernah ngepost tentang this mankind few months ago. Mungkin ini yang disebut dengan maximum loath. Banyak alasan yang membuat gue membenci dia secara total.

So, do you think I've wasted my time to write about this anger? *sigh

Enough is enough

2010-09-03T17:38:00.005+07:00

I broke up.

Well the question shouldn't be 'why did you break up' but 'whom did you break up with'.

As you know (or not) that I am supercalifragilisticexpialidociously single; I got nothing to do with, I got no one to blame to whenever I am PMS, I got no one to be texted... well I got one, actually. So what's wrong with your head, Doxy? What made you said that you have broken up?

It's me. I broke up with the old me.

I used to be zuper easy going while facing this life. Even though it gave me zuper easy effect, being a zuper easy going gave more drawbacks. I. could. not. concentrate. on. a. thing. Having 'let the life flows' motto destroyed me. Idk if it bothered you or not but it bothered me a lot. I had goals, but none seemed to be reached. I had dreams. And they still be dreams. Pathetic.

I need to make myself up. Not with those mascaras and compact powders. Either with the lip glosses and all eye shadows, glitters and expensive clothes.

The future is waiting ahead and I have prepared nothing so far. Nice? Or too stupid? Or too smart? xixixi. I'm not gonna hiatus since this is the only place I could run from all the boring stuff around (wait, I even post rarely). I'm not gonna study too hard and force my eyes to open all night long only for finishing the home works. According to my big sister, the only thing that a twelfth grader needs is enough sleep. That makes sense. Seriously, I think I will make myself up by fixing my sleeping time. I have sleeping disorder. Not that I am sleepless but I am, actually, the one who sleeps too much. I sleep everywhere; in the class, in front of tv, in front of the laptop, even in a competition (I slept while was waiting for my turn).

The goals!

Future is not complete without goals. I have created some goals which couldn't be accomplished, now it is the turn of the goals which will be marked as done someday. No. They will be marked as done next year:

University of Indonesia, Law Faculty majoring International Law. The only reason why I want to be in this faculty is the Moot Court. Thanks to ILCOMP 2010, I am now into mooting :) &if I fail (I wish I won't fail), I will try to be in UGM or UNPAD. Still, Law faculty. They both have moot court!!

Bandung Institute of Technology, Architecture SAPPK, majoring in Architectural Design. I feel nothing but interested in it. Simply sure I'm gonna take it!

Bandung Institute of Technology, FTTM, majoring in Geophysics Engineering. Should I tell you the reason?

I don't care if people hate the fact that I am gonna take social major since I am now majoring in science. Guys, do you know that dreams could change? I bet you have experienced it before ;)

nowplaying: Northern Downpour - Panic! At The Disco.

Go fight for the future! (ya I wish this time is real. enough is enough)

Next!

2010-08-25T14:59:00.002+07:00

OHOHO HAPPY WEDNESDAY, FELLAS. Feelin weird? I'm in such a swinging mood. This is my last year of senior high school and I still have to join competitions such as debating. I admit that I have fallen in love with debating and its friends but the thing that those teachers should understand is: I need to get focus on my last year.

Forget about the competition. I've just finished reading this:

This book is so wow and I am so gonna buy the second book: "The Magician"

The only obstacle I have is I don't have enough money to buy its second book. No. Not that because The Magician is that expensive. It's just me. I am getting closer to bankrupt unless Idul Fitri is only two days away so that I could earn more money :p

How's your week? Busy? Take a deep breath and don't forget to thank God for letting you alive.

Bye!

Make Up

2010-08-15T14:56:00.002+07:00

Ketika jam tanganku harus bersaksi di depan kalian semua bahwa aku telah mengkorupsikan waktu.
Ketika aku harus berjanji di hadapan kalian semua bahwa aku tidak akan pernah mengulangi kesalahan itu lagi.
Ketika waktu yang tersisa sedikit harus kurelakan untuk hilang.
Ketika aku harus berbohong untuk yang kesekian kalinya.

Ketika para saksi dapat kubungkam mulutnya.
Ketika uang menjadi sumber kebahagiaan.

Ketika aku hancur.

Apakah kata maaf masih berarti?

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Don't take that seriously hahaha warming up, guys. How's life? :)

Here's so-so. Sore yang lumayan mendung ditambah dengan kenyataan bahwa gue belum ngerjain pe er Kimia. ~~Shit.~~ *lagi bulan puasa gak boleh mengumpat ya? hehe*
The fact that I still have to go to school in ramadhan kinda makes me goes sigh. Moreover, kenyataan bahwa besok itu ulangan kimia dan bahasa indonesia. Belum lagi hari-hari berikutnya. Ada sejuta ulangan yang menanti dan tugas yang menangis minta dikumpulin. Freaking out? ALMOST.

Ah. And also I hate the fact that we got no ctrl+z function in our life. I need it, seriously.

On behalf of Kingdom of Rouvas.

2010-08-11T21:32:00.003+07:00

First day of Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah all things wet good here. I don't want to talk about Ramadhan in this post. Later, perhaps.

It's all about that competition which had driven me nuts. International Law Moot Court Competition 2010. It's my first mooting competition (well, and so do other high school participants). The thing is: My team was announced as the 2nd Runner Up! Happy? That night was probably my happiest night ever. I would never thought that we could make that far. Imagine. The competition was on Sunday while we had our first practice on Wednesday. We got rushed. We stayed out late for practicing. No... We stayed out late for case building. Mooting is something new for us. We did not know what was that. We had no idea about that. That was why case building took such long time to be done. Even on Saturday, the last day of practice, we still build the case with tons of possibilities along the case. We had to stay until 2 am at our coach's house. All those things got paid. Being the 2nd runner up of ILCOMP 2010 was such a pleasure. While others may be afraid and doubted for joining this competition, we did right to come, join, and win it. Lots of love :3

And I got a chance to take a picture with Harjo. Remember about him? The one I adore because of his brightness? He was the President of Judges on my semifinal round. I don't know whether I was lucky or not for having him as my judge. The point is: I was trembling all over my body just by the time when my team was announced as the big four and was about to have semifinal round in 45mins. I did not know what to do. Literally, that was out of my expectation. I really wish I could yell at the announcer, told her that I could do nothing cause I had prepared nothing. I was the one who got pessimist in all of sudden.

Lol. That was funny, wasn't it? I felt afraid for showing all I got in the court just because the one I adore was the judge of my court.

AHAHAHAHA.

For sure, I've been adoring someone I could never reach out. He's too high. In his way of life. In his age. In the thought of him. In every single thing of him. He's way too far from me. So, keeping him in mind would be much easier and hurtless :)

SHIT. WHY DO I WRITE SUCH CHEESY THINGS? ROFL.

And every breeze that whispers/ reminds us constantly/
Sometimes what's real/ is something you can't see//
Believe - Barbie and The Diamond Castle

Good night,
Wida.

Sahana Sisya Pujyate Satyanam Sapta Eka; minus one.

2010-07-24T06:08:00.002+07:00

Hulla.

This is funny. When I thought I would be more productive, tons of activities hit me. Dang. Now I'm half dead.

Being a senior, so far, is sucks. Moreover, I've missed almost a week. That was unforgivable. If my dad knew about that, I would get killed. No. Sorry. That was hyperbole.

So, minggu pertamaku berjalan lancar. Oke, gak gitu lancar karena aku satu kelas sama mantanku. Dan mantan gebetan-sampe-mati nya mantanku. Shit. we were just broken up less than 3 weeks and now we have to pass a year together.... I don't know if I can deal with that. Okelah ya. Forget about the ex one. Aku sekelas sama sembilan anak SPS. I repeat. SEMBILAN anak SPS. My first thought was: 'gila ini kalo ada acara OSIS pasti kelas sepi deh'. Dan bener aja. Hari Rabu, waktu ada gladi kotor Lomba Sekolah Sehat, semua anak OSIS dipanggil ke bawah buat ikutan gladi kotor. Dua belas ipa tiga langsung sepi. LOL. Minggu lalu SPS baru nyelesain proker terakhir bareng bos Uli. Yes. She's gonna move to Switzerland this August for AFS Program. Jabatan ketua osis diserahkan ke Aldi. Bocah Cina speleng. Geez.

Lottttttta memories have been written in this heart. SPS kemarin kompakan nangis setelah Uli serah terima jabatan ke Aldi. Keluar ruang AVI dengan sesenggukan, diiringi Kisah Klasiknya Sheila on 7. Dilapangan kita pelukan. Sambil mengingat ingat perjalanan SPS selama hampir satu tahun bersama Bos Uli. Clasivy, proker pertama kita yang bisa dibilang sukses banget. LPJ langsung selesai sehari setelah Clasivy berakhir. Bangganya :) Kemudian Sevone 3. Walaupun gak sesukses Clasivy, Sevone 3 bawa rejeki. Surplus!! Abis itu MOPDB kemarin... Time goes as fast as the wind blows.

Gak mau ditinggal Uli.

:'(

Menye-menye banget ya? Tapi pasti Aldi bisa kok ngegantiin Uli! Go Aldi go!! :p

Goodbye, Uli. Take care! SPS will see you next year, dengan jaket universitas kami masing-masing :)

/bersenang-senanglah/ karena hari ini akan kita rindukan/ di hari tua//
/sampai jumpa kawanku/ smoga kita selalu/ menjadi sebuah kisah klasik/ untuk masa depan//

Somewhere in the middle

2010-07-06T06:54:00.001+07:00

Hello.
Wait, is a hello nice enough to start this post? Things went random; Literally.

Here are the things;
remember I broke up last week? Today I went out with a senior. No no that was not a kind of revenge or somewhat. Its just, I think the choice to break up was a good choice. Then someone came, fill a section of me and let the past run. Get it? 'I love you' pasti gak berarti apa apa buat mantanku, like, beneran cuma sekedar I love you. Tapi buatku jg sepertinya gitu. Soalnya aku ngerasa painless xD Words are easy to be said. Heart? It can do anything but lie.

Lol. That was epic.

Terus seniornya gimana? Hmm Idk. ROFL I am like a bitch. Nevermind. Aku cuma ngerasa dia lebih suka aku dibanding aku suka dia. Wow. I feel tired of having a relationship. Yaaaa, empat kali pacaran, tiga kali cowoknya yang minta putus. Seems like I've done bad. Padahal aku emang serius kalo pacaran. Never thought that 'break-up' would come out through my mouth. Wow yang ini aku jadi keliatan kaya malaikat ya? O:)

Anw, I went to FHUI last Saturday for a workshop. There, I met Harjo. A collegiate in FHUI who had been entering world's law moot competition. He was F ing charming. His English was the best. His gesture and absolutely, his face, are the additional point for his coolness. OMG I really wish he could be my coach for the next one month xP

Then.
Holiday will be end in less than 4 days and the best place for this holiday so far: school. I know I am sucks. Tapi nametag master untuk junior juga harus diselesaikan. Nasib jadi sie kreatif. Dan nanti: rapat osis. Huh. Mall is probably my second fave place after school. And... Aku belum nonton Karate Kid. Padahal ini liburan x(

Done with this post. I know you guys may get bored or things. This happens to me, darling ;)

So, goodbye, little chihuahua! Jangan mudah terbawa arus, ya! :}

Wait. Aku baru dapet kabar. Harjo wouldn't be our coach but Andina had saved his number for me. She is such an angel xD

Antartika

2010-06-28T21:49:00.001+07:00

I broke up. I got hurt but I was good. Everything's nice and under control. He was simply not worth any of my tear :)

Hari ini penuh penderitaan, sepertinya. Sempet ditahan gaboleh keluar mal krn gabawa stnk, nunggu dua orang manusia kucluk selesai rapat osis sampe sore. Tp terbayarkan. I had a pizza party and quality time with my friends :}

Tapi malemnya putus. Ironis x'(

Oiya hpku sempet diumpetin sm Rocky. Kukira bener2 hilang. Terus hari ini lagu yg terngiang di kepala: Soulvibe - Antartika.
Besok mau pergi beli froyo, sendirian jg gpp deh. Mau naik sepeda keliling Jakarta, and so on. I know I dont seem like a broken-hearted girl. Kesedihan berlarut itu ga bagus, dear friends. You need to make yourself busy with stuff xD

Happy holiday, anyway. Have a great lover!

Smile,
Doxy

Moody.

2010-06-27T06:22:00.000+07:00

moody
• adjective (moodier, moodiest)
1 given to sudden bouts of gloominess or sullenness. 2 giving a melancholy or mysterious impression.

Damn rite. I love you, my m00dy guy.

Unconscious

2010-06-25T05:58:00.000+07:00

Good morning. This is too early for me to stay wake and write sumthin, isn't it? I'm about to have Saman practice at 8 in Monas. Yes. Monas. Isn't it far? Today is our last practice cause we are going to break Indonesian record: Saman Dance with 2000 hands; tomorrow. Yes. We are 1000 people who don't know each other and dancing to break Indonesian record. Isn't it cool? ;3

Anyway.

I have been taken under bad thought's control. Relationship is killing me softly. Ha-ha. It seems like we know we're in love but thats it. It's sucks. I've been asking him what have made him went bad but the only answer was always silent. WHAT THE HELL IS ON YOUR MIND, DARLING? I'M SICK OF BEING IGNORED. I'M SICK OF PRETENDING THAT WE ARE OKAY.

So little time/ I try to understand that I'm/ Tryin to make a move just to stay in the game/ I try to stay awake and remember my name/ But everybody's changing/ And I don't feel the same//

Everybody's changing - Keane

Three Little Birds

2010-06-11T19:07:00.002+07:00

Have you ever had a feeling when your expectation is being bounced and thrown away? When reality pushed you. Then you felt so down and tired and seemed like nothing could help you. And everyone whom you thought could help you, they ran away, pretended that they hadn't even seen you. Have you? I have. And the best part about that is: we could learn. It's simply hurting.

But, hey. To learn is to sacrifice. Be though, darling.

don't worry/ about a thing// cause every little thing/ will gonna be alright//

Three Little Birds - Bob Marley

SEVONE CHAMPIONSHIP 3 - HURIONITY

2010-06-10T09:49:00.004+07:00

SMA Negeri 71 Jakarta
Osis Sahana Sisya Pujyate Satyanam Sapta Eka
proudly presents
SEVONE CHAMPIONSHIP 3
HURIONITY
Humanity Raise Your Nationalism for Charity

June 14th - 19th 2010
at SMAN 71 Jakarta

Competitions:
Futsal
Basketball
Saman Dance
English Debate
Rally Photo

Closing on June 19th 2010 at SMAN 71 Jakarta

Guest Stars:

Barry Likumahuwa Project

Seringai

The Trees and The Wild

Judé

Featuring Bands:

Morgen bis Abend
Self Morbid
Vegan
Kacang Mede
Vintage Faggots

Band Audition:

Granny Nanny
Happy Holiday
Rendy n Friends
Terror of The Skies

All Star 71:

Chelsea
Salzeus
Tracesa

Blood Donation on June 18th, 9am onwards at SMAN 71 Jakarta

Daily Ticket (14-17 June) : IDR 8.000
Pre Sale Ticket (til June 18th) : IDR 20.000
On The Spot Ticket : IDR 25.000

Be There and Feel The Sensation!

A letter to my Rotten Hub

2010-06-09T09:46:00.003+07:00

Dear my sweet Rotten Hub.

This is my x posts in this month. I don't know why but I think June is the month when I become more productive. Lot of stories. Lot of activities and thoughts. Lot of everything. Sevone is coming to the town next week. Everybody's busy doing it. I've been dying, also, for earning more money. This event must be the success one. Well, I bet this will.

As time goes by, I will receive my semester report and probably I will continue to the senior year. Ah. Senior year. What could I expect? What I know about senior year is no playing no more. Thats gonna torture me well since I'm good at playing. Lol.

Ah. Time to go.

Write on you letter, R.

Love,
Doxy

Rain and You.

2010-06-05T18:18:00.000+07:00

I am suddenly missing you. For some specific reasons, I am.

I am missing the way we rode through the rain. The way you gave your jacket to me, to proof me, cause you got no raincoat to be worn by me. The way you held my hand in the car, to help me sleep cause rain made me fall sleepy. The way you let me sleep in your arm. The way you worried me cause it was late and I was probably got locked outside.

Its raining. And I miss you.

If only I could turn back time.

2010-06-05T11:30:00.000+07:00

Nowplaying : Zoobi Doobi - Sonu Nigam & Shreya Ghoshal

The boys are currently doing Jumat prayer in Mosque. The girls and I are having another doing-nothing time in class. I put 3 tables in a row and lay on it. I am on my period and it affects me. Not much, actually, cause I always put a smile in my every act. Smile lifts me up. Try this, I suggest.

I dont feel bothered for being in my period. Well, for some reasons, yes. But period is not a good reason to blame on others.

Random. I didnt want to talk about it at first.

Oh, Cayman Islands is on the playlist! I am ready to write.

I am 16 going on 17. I am on my perfect time to shine, to learn what maturity is, to..... Wait up, those girls were just leave me behind. Shit.

I repeat. I am on my perfect year to find out who I really am.

I repeat. Teenagers are on their perfect year to find out who they really are.

Well I dont blame those who take the sentence above too seriously.

Its sad to know that my friends have crossed out the way. I thank God for warning me not to do such things. But I blame myself for letting them trapped. God....

If only I could turn back time.

Help. Police needed.

2010-06-03T21:52:00.000+07:00

Mom is gonna turn 46 tomorrow. I've had the cake and ready to make a surprise.

This post has nothing to do with Ma.

So, I live under the spotlight. I am neither a queen nor a celebrity but I have a spot in people's heart. And I love it. Not to mention that boys love me more than their girls but being around those guys make me relieve.

And selfish.

And big headed.

This is funny how I hate it when my guys pay less attention to me. They pay more to the girl who goes with me. I am feeling jealous.

And this happens only with the guys. I dont give a damn whether my boy is doing the same thing or not.

You know, friends give more than boyfriend gives.

AND. I. AM. ON. MY. WAY. TO. THE. BACKSTAGE.

My spotlight has been stolen.
And this lyric doesnt come along with my story of love. This comes along with my jealousy *taser*

//So the hell what/
What's so special about that//
She used to model/she's done some acting//
So she weighs a buck 'o 5//
And I guess that she's alright/if perfection is what you like//
Ooh/ooh/and I'm not jealous/no//
I'm not//
Ooh/ooh/I just want everything//
she's got//

Paula Deanda - When It Was Me

My roller coaster is on the ground. Lets see when will it be crawling up.

The eliminated one,
Doxy.

I've learnt. Am I mature enough now?

2010-06-01T22:44:00.002+07:00

As I promised to write after the exam, here it goes:

A friend of mine told me that I am lucky to have him beside me, literally. There goes two possibilities: the expression of caring or jealousy. She just doesnt know how seldom that happens. But, really, her words opened my eyes. Note to self: be more grateful. As she told me that I was happier than her. Thanks God. Those pity voices around my head about his ignorance should be crossed over and dumped.

All of these weaknesses turn out to be something I never notice: he never walks too far.

I was with him today. K, I needed to have a lil bit warming up because of a week without voice. Awkward. But all turned nice. You know, when love is around, all awkwardnesses go as time goes by. That happened. I dont know whether its just my problem for missing him too much or he really pay me less attention. But thats alright. Now I am good.

So, talking about love is kinda confusing enough. Moreover, if you feel it. If you know how love could kill, maybe you won't open yourself to such things. If you know how love could heal, maybe you will never feel tired of searching for such things.

I've finished all my exams. Good to hear? Thanks. And I also have broken my records. I made 90 at Chem. How was that? Great? Well that was just a lucky shot.

Envy me.

Cupba

2010-05-28T10:24:00.001+07:00

3 days off. But will see school again and face the exam. 5 more days and I will write again.

Mature enough? Mirror talks.

2010-05-20T12:56:00.000+07:00

Again. I post via mobile while having a language class. Yesterday was Bahasa &I use English class today to post this shit. Currently sitting in the back row, alone. Having a clearance of mind &little bit relaxation after Phy --which was torturing me. I don't have any important news or whatever to share. I don't know why I write this post. Well maybe things will be expelled out from my mouth as this writing goes.

I lose my mood. Jack stole it. Yes, that fvking ripper had stolen my mood for, like, ever. He won't return it unless I beg him but I won't. Cause I don't need my mood to kill person. A little 'Avada Kedavra' must be enough. Ah. I know what to write.

These days I'm cursing myself. For being awkward &weird &dumb. My life went messy. I've told you on my previous post. School, friends, love; all are in trouble. Started with a little misunderstanding &ended up with a big war. I miss my friend, for real. I miss to have a silly convo on the red chair plus the love stories which come out from those mouths. Those silly jokes, convos, chats. I also miss the adventure of us. But the most important thing I miss is my trust. Its been a week. I need to get my trust back on you cause you were the only one who used to hear every of my voice, advise me when I need it, share every single thing you have. Friends.

We were best friends. Now we are just friends. With secrets.

HUP. I NEED TO GET THESE TEARS AWAY *wiping*

I want to have a pizza party this noon. Want to join? Bring ur best shirt said 'this friendship can not be bought by Pizza but I would be glad if you give me a slice'

I'm out. Once I'm back I'll let you know that I have my bestfriend back (or not).

A little hello after facing a rough adventure; of what you call: a life.

2010-05-19T10:50:00.004+07:00

been a week. i've gotten back from jogja. Got so many lessons, experiences and also clothes!! I went shopping at malioboro and got blinded by the price. I spent a lot. That made me feel like a billionaire $____$

Anything about jogja will be posted soon after I reach my internet PC.

School? As always, get boring easily. What makes me concern about school and still attending is this week would probably be the last week of my 2nd year. I'll have my final exam next week. That is suck.

Friends? Here's the thing :
I never give a damn about what you (yes, you, the one who declared urself as my best-friend) have done, have thought, and have said to me. Actually I tried but you have decided to start this war. It is impossible for me not to care.

Love? K, here I declare myself as a 'homosexual'-hater.
Not a real homo but the one who acts as if he is a homo by holding a boy's hand, kissing a boy on his cheek, hugging a boy, and all those things are done passionly. No offense. Maybe I got jealous because my boyfriend did the same with his friends. I was okay. I was. But the more he did, the more I hate. So if you still want to play that game, just tell me to turn around. I don't want to take a look even for a little.

I got lotta money $___$ My outstanding certificate was refund. That was kewl. I could repair my camera lens -it was broken into two. &maybe buy a new charger for my cellphone. Rangga got it broken. Fvck ya but its alrite. I was laughing at it instead of getting angry. That is friend. Real friend :]

I gotta go. I need to transfer Little Miss Sunshine to my external hard drive. Can't wait to watch it since IronLungs recommended it to me.

Mix of sorrow&happiness,
Doxy, the random <3

When a best friend makes love with knife.....

2010-05-11T12:39:00.003+07:00

=

WHAT MORE DO YOU EXPECT?

Emo-post

2010-05-01T21:07:00.003+07:00

What is it like to be legal?

I wish I could be more grateful with my condition. For having such an idealist family. For having some legal friends. For being a rebellion.

I am one of them you don't like the most. Because I can't go out and come home late. Because I have to study on my weekend. Because I speak to a machine named computer. Because I made friend with Disney Princesses. Because I don't hold a Blackberry or any other smart phones. Because I am uncool. Like, seriously, I am uncool. I wear glasses. I hate skirts even though I've tried to wear it -It just doesn't fit me perfectly. I worry if my score is below the average. I hate to study -ok this thing is a common thing- but my dad always forces me to do so.

And tonight might be the climax. I had a fight with mom just because I came home late. But hey, I've told her that I would go home late &the traffic was out of my expectations. You've got to know that the road to my home was closed because of two events. A funeral &a maulid. That was impossible to drive straight to my home. I turned around to find another way. Then when I got home, mom didn't want to welcome me. She closed her door &locked it. I screamed from the outside &we shouted at each other -ok this part is the epic-est one. I could make a tv series from this part. &I cried. &She said she would never look after me anymore. That was the saddest part. Ever.

&now I'm writing on my blog. Trying to let all this hard feelings. I've texted I &he told me to calm down. He was the best mood booster. Thanks, I!

So, thanks for letting me share on you. I feel better :)

Things. And. I. Went. Random.

2010-04-30T19:19:00.002+07:00

End of April. I don't know whether I should be happy or not. Things went crazy, as always. Two of my friends got broken up. Two couples. I wish that doesn't mean that April was our suck-est month ever -which is true, half of it.

So, May's coming to town. I will get my holiday on May 12th. Yes. May 12th, a trip to Yogyakarta with 2011! Happy? Terribly happy and I can't even wait for that moment to come. And, a whole day in the bus with Freak Show! That. Must. Be. Priceless.

Anyway, Bike2School works! We always show to our principal that we ride bike. And he gives full support. Hope we would get the parking lane for bicycle (Y).

What else?

I'll get it listed to make it simple :

Eja got smallpox. Its been a week he hadn't came to school. Ehos was closed, too. We don't have a playground for this stressing week.
Uti got infected, too! This is epic cause two of us got smallpox right when we had lot of things to be talked.
So, being a plagiarist is a trend now, eh? I've found some of my friends copying my style in writing. Not to mention that I am a popular but hey, don't you have your own style? And what makes that funny is they also mock someone for being a plagiarist -just like what I do right now but I am do not even do plagiarism.
Relationship went smooth. But things were broken. He often treated my things badly. He put my shoe on the top of the gate hid my bike helmet. That was so annoying but still okay. As long as he doesn't put my heart on the bottom of his butts then throw it away -random.
I need to get my bike brake change!! OMG OMG ASAP.

Wish May would bring a good luck. For you, too.

Me. Wants. This. Boy.

2010-04-30T18:39:00.004+07:00

A man's shadow (Yin & Yang).

2010-04-26T23:38:00.001+07:00

Dear my I.
Sorry for becoming such an unreachable person these days.
So sorry for not being there when you need me.
Sorry for not being such a cheering person when your mood is down.
Terribly sorry for being such a living dracul these days.
Whooper sorry for not replying all your messages.
Just note this: I love you.
Get it?
I. LOVE. YOU.

CFD April 25th, so random.

2010-04-25T19:58:00.004+07:00

Yes. Car free day 2010 kali ini random banget. Moreover, weird.

-Crowded street (much more&more&more&more crowded)
-3 events at a time
-Cars on the road

The last one might not be as weird as you thought but.........

cars on car free day road? they deserved this

and this

karena seharusnya, hari ini adalah hari bebas kendaraan bermotor, so, turn your engine off &start pushing your car! Lmao

I knew I should not go blog

2010-04-20T17:38:00.003+07:00

Hi, Potatoes!

I'm on my mid term test now. I know I shouldnt blog these days but things were going crazy.

- my friend got worse in her relationship &I couldnt say anything but 'idk what to do, just be patient'
- my mid test's scores were suck. its been two days &the good score was only one out of 4.
- strangers called me. YES. STRANGERS. Lot of stranger. &they annoyed me with freaky symbols.
- flu catches me. o come on what could be worse than sneezing when you are on a date?
- my mood to study has gone. for real~
- &I eat less. Seriously.

I gotta study. Tomorrow will be English, civic &IT. w00t.

Anyway, stalking people's wall-to-wall is extremely fun. Try it! :p

Think of Love

2010-04-13T06:38:00.002+07:00

Sometimes I wanna give you all the time that I have
Coz when you die my world come tumbling down in front of me
Oh I was thinking why I need you more each day

When I think of love
I just think of you
I said I want you, I want you to be my wife
When I think of love
I just think of you
I said I want you, I want you to be my wife

Thank you for the last night visit. Thank you for making me yours. Thank you for telling it right on Brendon Urie's birthday. Thank you &I love you.

Dufan, for the 7234567356th time!

2010-03-26T08:52:00.003+07:00

YES I WENT THERE YESTERDAY. NO NEED TO SAY, ONLY NEED TO SHOW :D

maximum love <3

Double you- o -double you

2010-03-25T06:21:00.003+07:00

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

Everheard about this sentence? If you are a Disney-freak or somewhat, this may cross your head a moment.

Remember, now?

Its the title of the song which was sung in Disney Musical Mary Poppins. Or, you know nothing about this song? Don't worry. I first know this sentence a year ago when my 'sister' spoke it loud in a classroom when we were having a spelling bee game. Yes, she might be insane since Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious was the longest and the hardest sentence I've ever heard. How could I spell it? Tee hee now I can easily say it loud and sing it together with Julie Andrews and Dick van Dyke on YouTube :D

I suddenly remember this sentence while surfing on tumblr. This picture and the comments below made me remember about the sentence I used to be familiar with. Then I googled it, found it on Wikipedia, and searched it on YouTube. Then I downloaded the song &now am going to sing it all day long :D

Anyway the comments below the video also realized me that the Disney Musical-used-to-be are way cooler and much more kids-watch-able than now. High School Musical? Hannah Montana? Okay they might be cool but I think they fit to teens more than children.

Wait.

I forget the Disney Playhouse part :p

You rock, Disney! You rocked, rocks, and will rock me, always :D

Its 12:36 am

2010-03-23T00:33:00.002+07:00

& I still wait for the brilliant idea, pop out from my brain.

or should I pull it out?

ps. I hate jigsaw.

Promotion

2010-03-21T09:38:00.001+07:00

I've been working hard for my essay writing project and also the presentation and hell yeah! I did well. My presentation went well and the procturs did't argue much. Lately I know one of the proctur, Miss Ira, loved my presentation. Wish the best for my class! Big smooch :)

Another news. My student body is gonna hold an event this year, called SEVONE Championship 3 - Hurionity. The poster is not finished but we're working on it. Gonna put the poster and the whole detail of this event. Or may be just take a look at our website.

And, I'm going to have a long day-off. Started from last Friday, and will be end at next Sunday. Feel free? Well half of it. I have a tight schedule this holiday. From a meet up with vinska&adinda, and also gath with junior high friends, arranging some english-course schedules, and so on. I never want to be this busy but yeaaaaa *sombong* :p

Good luck anyway for my seniors, 71 Senior High School, year 2010. Your national examination is just a day away, break a leg for the next 5 days! God blesses you!

I wish...

2010-03-10T22:06:00.004+07:00

I wish I could hide, let people go with their things and mind with no one's business. I wish I could have a day to go somewhere over the rainbow. I wish I could escape from these fuckin problems. I wish my wish would be granted.
Amin.

current song : Two Is Better Than One - Boys Like Girls

current mood : should I avoid you and let you walk out of my memory?

Rush weekend

2010-03-07T06:13:00.003+07:00

So this have been my rush-est weekend. I got a day off last Friday since the seniors were having pra-national examination. And I decided to watch 3idiots with Echa. This movie is a total recommended movie. Watch it, cry with it, laugh with it, smile with it, get the moral lessons from it.

Before watching 3idiots, Echa and I were looking for Meli's birthday gift. Yes! She turns 17 just by now! Happy 17th yeasr old, Meli :D

I could only find one gift, the undies one, instead of finding the whole outfit. Geez. So we decided to continue it on the next day.

On Saturday, after swimming ( well, we didnt really 'swim' ), we went to some stores to buy the rest of the outfit. After we got it, we swung to FX to watch Alice in the wonderland, but, unfortunately, the seats were full. Damn yoooooo. So we watched Up In The Air. My comment? Less understandable *teeheheheheheh*

Am going to go to Meli's party this noon. What's your plan today?

Current mood: Sensible
Current song: Aal Izz Well - 3idiots soundtrack

February on the road

2010-03-02T21:07:00.000+07:00

So. No photos. I am just too lazy to upload it. Besides, I used my manual camera more than my digicam.

If you feel attracted to my trip to HI, check my Facebook out!

Exhausted

2010-02-27T21:38:00.002+07:00

Good evening!

I am here to tell you that I have just loosen a competition in La Piazza. My team & I actually. Tracesa did great on that competiton but yeah... better luck next time!

And I have just got home from selling clothes at Trisakti with Echa, Aldi, Ka Reni and her boyfriend. Its a charity event for a collegiate named Arthur. He was and is in a very bad condition so I helped him by selling clothes to other Trisakti collegiates. Well, I actually helped Ka Reni to sell them :p

And everyone seemed so interested in that clothes :)

I got home with an additional income *dancing*

Anyway, tomorrows gonna be fun since my friends and I will have another trip to HI with bicycle. Viva car free day! Gonna show you the photos, later.

ps. I've bought a film for my Nikon FM 10. Have tried it and gonna use it tomorrow.

Good Night, follovers! (inspired by AjakanMaut)

Current Song: Kelsey - Metro Station
Current Mood: divided into two. feels like branched.

Midnight Post, stressed out

2010-02-20T00:14:00.003+07:00

So here I am. In front of my laptop, accompanied by my playlist and working on my speech.
Yes.
I am going to have another speech contest. TOMORROW. God. I just made the first text this morning and have just finished the second. I supposed to make 3 texts.

Am I crazy?

No.

I only need a flash idea. A bright mind. Would you give me one?

These love fantasies all turned red

2010-02-16T20:55:00.004+07:00

What's happening? I've been in love these days. I haven't told you yet because I was too worried whether that was a right time to say that I'm in love or not. But today, I am in love with someone I never thought I would fall in love with.

Ever heard Never Knew I Needed? That song fits me perfectly. At first I knew him as a friend of my friends. We were at the same school so we won't get lost easily. We only had a little time together because he seemed not-so-my-type and maybe I was so-not-his-type, too. A little conversation we had. And just by the end of 2009, when we were getting closer, and I started to realize I liked him, something brought me down. Someone said he was in love with one of my closest friends........... Dang!

I was trying to be calm since hurting closest friend was not on my life. But hey, who wants to be hurted, indirectly? Then I found out my closest friend was in love with another boy. Dang! I felt like heaven was so close. This was a good chance! But how could I let him suffer?

From that day I've tried to avoid him but then my closest friend went steady with his crush. God. I felt like, hey maybe he will try to forget her and maybe I will get a bigger chance. But until now, I haven't done anything.

I told my bestfriend, about the whole story. I told it in front of my other friends which I knew they were untrusted. So I made it in a fun way. I grabbed an empty pack of Fullo wafer roll, a coin denominate Rp 500,00, an empty pack of Gery Chocolatos, a Rp 5.000,00 & Rp 1000,00. Each thing represent someone. I took a part as Mrs. Fullo, my crush as Mr. 500, my closest friend as Mrs. Chocolatos, my closest friend's boyfriend as Mr. Pattimura, and My bestfriend as Tuanku Imam Bonjol. ROFL. That was fun.

Anyway, I've just done my mathematic exam today and the result was so unexpected!! I got 100 out of 100. Maximum score!! How could I not happy since I haven't got a good score in this year. Poor me. But well this is a good start. Who knows if I could be the #1? :p

Another issue. I signed up on a Science Olympic. Epic! Me. Into a science olympic. That is great. I took Physics, the easier one. I am not good at Biology&Chemistry. They really are evil. Talking about evil, one of my teachers, got angry in my class. One simple reason. Crowdy.

Hey-hoo.

We were that crowd because she told us to have a discussion method in our learning. Then she turned red. Until now.

Phew. I got lotta works to do. My final project (essay writing&presentation), all those fucking examinations, all those SEVONE things, all those love things. Help me, God.

What my life has gone through these days......

2010-02-13T20:11:00.004+07:00

images taken from google.com

Hey, zero, where are you?

2010-02-12T20:34:00.003+07:00

What I've been thinking lately besides the love thingy is how I could pass this semester with a great score. Much better than the last semester. Ah I havent told you anything about my 3rd semester report, have I? I am on 20 out of 40. Imagine. My 2nd semester rank was five &I thought that was incredibly good for a labile high school student. But now, on my 3rd semester, I think Ive ruined many things. I dont know why my mood is so on a roller coaster but that does effect me. I am a moddy person.

People say start everything from zero. But wheres my zero? I cant find my zero.

E for Empty

2010-02-12T19:37:00.005+07:00

Current mood : emo

Current song : Gangsta Luv

I see the surrounding. I know I am not alone but this heart feels so empty like almost fall from me &get away. I can imagine it now, my heart, with the exact shape of a heart, jump out from my tummy and runaway. It doesn't like to be alone. I know. Who does?

*kenapa jadi emo gini?*

Oke. Bermula dari Acin sama Sisil, dilanjutkan oleh Afary &Echa, Rangga &Lusita, Bani &Fredy, lalu yang terakhir Uti &Devita.

Envy?

No.

Not at all, maksudnya. Gue sempet mikir, "kalo mereka lagi sibuk sama pacarnya masing-masing, pasti gue yang akan nggak nyambung sendiri. kalo mereka lagi ngurusin double date, triple date, or any-number-times-two date, pasti gue cuma bisa bilang ih asik banget. kalo gue lagi bingung mau cerita sama siapa, pasti mereka yang akan datang ke gue dan bilang gue lagi ada masalah sama pacar gue, please jangan ganggu dulu"

God.

Sebenernya gue gakmau sampe kepikiran yang kaya gitu. But the surrounding forces me to.

Anw, did I just exaggerate everything?

Happy Birthday Arum!

2010-01-16T08:50:00.003+07:00

So, happy Saturday, everyone!!

I got lotta stories to tell to you :)

Last Sunday, my friends&I went to Arum's house to give her a surprise cake since she turned 16 on last Thursday. Here comes the photos :

So that was the greatest Sunday ever, to be with my bestfriends in a day. Ah and we also had a car-karaoke-ing time :D

What was your last Sunday, buds? Share me :)

2010 here we go

2010-01-03T13:01:00.003+07:00

And now we turn into something new. Year has changed and so does age.

2009 brought something. Something to learn. Something to be remembered. Something not to be forgotten. Something you may wish you could turn back in time, into 2009.

Grateful?

Of course! What more do you expect if you already get everything you need and you don't need?

2010 and resolution. Its been on everybody's webs, everybody's journals, everybody's diaries. I think I should create one, too. List in what should I get in this year. But later on. I haven't thought anything about it.

Anyway, I used to think that life must be filled not with plans, but with coincidences.

Don't know why I'm changing.

Time does matter, buds :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR! xo

Liburan!

2009-12-27T21:38:00.004+07:00

Yellow :D

Liburan nih. Akhirnya. Walaupun rasanya gak bener-bener liburan karena sempet latian saman beberapa hari berturut-turut untuk job di Grand Hyatt. Hasilnya? Lumayanlah mengisi dompet selama liburan :p

Sempet juga bolos latian saman sehari karena badanku rasanya pegel semua. Maklumlah, setelah harkatan yang selesainya jam 12 malem itu besoknya langsung lomba saman di TMII. Walaupun belum menang tp udah menampilkan yg terbaik lho :D

Waktu itu cabut ke Gading aja deh sama Echa, Aldi, dan Mamat. Ide dadakan yg berawal dari dvd marathon itu akhirnya nonton film. Memang ya, rencana yg dipikir mateng-mateng biasanya gak jalan tapi kalo dadakan selalu sukses. Nonton apa? Alvin and The Chipmunks 2!!

Komentarnya? Aku gak nonton yg pertama tp yg kedua ini TOTALLY FUNNY. Duh seneng banget akhirnya bisa relaksasi sejenak. Sempet ada perdebatan sebentar sama mbak-mbak yg jualan tiket di bioskopnya.

Mbak-mbak penjual tiket : Film apa?
Echa : Alvin, mbak!
Mbak-mbak penjual tiket : Jam 16.55 ya. duduk dimana?
Echa : *ngeliat screen* yah tinggal yang K. kalo Planet 51 gimana mbak?
Mbak-mbak penjual tiket : Masih kosong sih, tapi lucuan alvin, tauk.
Echa : yah tapi mbak udah tinggal K gini
Mbak-mbak penjual tiket : tapi seat K jauh dari layar kok beneran deh
Echa : iyayah? hmm gimana ya?
Mbak-mbak penjual tiket : sayang lho
Echa : yaudah deh, 4 ya mbak.

Terus sekarang punya account formspring.me. Kalau mau tanya apapun, silakan tanya disini ya. Aku pasti jawab kok!

lalu besok rencananya ke Puncak. Malam tahun baru disana kayanya. Pertama kali tahun baru diluar. Wow :D

Have a nice holiday, fellas :D

Holiday!

2009-12-21T12:51:00.003+07:00

This is the beginning of holiday journey :D

So how's life? I've been wasting my time for updating my twitter account. No I'm not a spammer yet sometimes I am :p Besides I could hardly accessing internet through PC. I don't know why. Something went wrong with the connection.

I'm on Gossip Girl these days and maybe only watch it during this holiday.

News lately? Oh yeah I am now in 2nd level of Pencak Silat, Jurus. I had my test last Saturday and even though I was commented by the guru, I move to 2nd level now :D

the juniors :D

the seniors <3

Anyway I don't celebrate Christmas but it always fun whenever Christmas comes. I can feel the euphoria!
And new year's resolution? Don't talk much. Be a better one. That's enough.

So what's your own resolution for new year, guys? Feel free to share :D

Tons of News

2009-12-06T10:13:00.003+07:00

Finally :) Exam week's over! Tons of smile came out from my face when I finished my last exam. Art, for exact. Actually, on the last minutes, I almost cried. Since my pentagon had not been finished yet. I decided to make it quick&not based on the right way. Fortunately, my projection picture got 90 :D woohoo~

Anyway, I went for a swim last Saturday &I was drowning. Gah. Everyone's laughed at me. LOLs.

&For the ASEAN Simulation Meeting Competition, thanks God, my team won! As the 5th winner, defeats other 60 schools :D

Yesterday, I went to Dira's house with Fadiah. it's been long time we haven't meet each other. &finally we met up &made some disasters. Lols. I miss 'em already.

&I'ma going to have classmeeting week! Yippie. For this year, we add new competition. Rubik's Competition. I bet this will rock our school :p

I got a wish for this December. I wish I would have another December to be spent :D

Bye!

INMML

2009-12-01T14:09:00.005+07:00

Everyone has their own roller coaster. It lifts 'em up yet pushes 'em down.
I'm in my roller coaster and it pushes me down.
I've said to myself that i mustn't fall.
I am the only survivor...

And I know life would never be fair.
But hoping is something that should not denied.

Now I'm hoping.
For my best.
Not now.
Someday...

The Return of The Super Sensible and Sexy and Slippable and Sorrowless Girl!

2009-11-24T18:57:00.005+07:00

Halo :)

Jangan terpengaruh sama judulnya. Cuma buat mencairkan suasana aja kok yang udah lumayan tegang ya karena gue udah lama banget gak ngeblog. Sibuk? Bisa dibilang iya, bisa dibilang juga enggak. Soalnya kalo malem juga gue selalu sempet untuk update twitter kok.

Hampir sebulan gue gak nulis. Rasanya kangen. Hampir lupa gimana caranya nulis *bohong* & sempet panik waktu tau blogspot gakbisa dibuka. Ada yang bilang lagi main tenis *beneran kan?*. Terus langsung sujud syukur begitu tahu kalo blogspotnya bisa dibuka lagi *bohong lagi*.

Kebanyakan bohong? Karena hidup tidak selamanya adil, kawan. Dan memang bebek goreng itu enak *gak nyambung*

Mau cerita.

Sekarang gue resmi menjadi anggota OSIS SMAN 71 *tepuk tangan*
Waktu H-2 LDKS, pas tengah malem lagi ngerjain nametag, di sms sama ______ *fill the blank* katanya ada beberapa orang capsis yang akan menjadi caketos cakapeka. Salah satunya adalah gue.

WOOT?!

Tenang dulu. Gue sendiri gak percaya waktu dikasih tau begitu. Jantung gue langsung berdetak gak jelas tanda bingung harus gimana. Dan besoknya gue diharuskan berkampanye ke kelas-kelas. Nyiapin visi misi? Udah. Tapi gue gapunya pengalaman kampanye. Cuma waktu Global Day Action aja itupun cuma jalan kaki aja, kan, kampanyenya.

Alhamdulillah si Uli baik hati dan bersedia memberitahukan apa-apa saja yang harus dan tidak harus diucapkan pada kampanye.

Dan ldksnya seru kok :) 3 jempol buat para kopassus yang udah ngajarin tata tertib!

Terus hasilnya? Walaupun gak jadi ketua OSIS atau ketua MPK, alhamdulillah gue mengemban tugas menjadi ketua humas. Memang Allah tahu apa yang pantes buat hambaNya.

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Nah, cerita pertama selesai, nih...

Lho masih ada lagi?

Iya dong. One will never be enough!

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Cerita Kedua.

Duh, ini kayak bikin cerpen aja ya. Cerita kedua tentang keadaan gue sekarang. Yeah I know most of you will pay less attention. Tapi kalian juga harus tahu karena ini bisa menjadi alasan kuat kenapa gue jarang banget ngeblog.

Sekarang lagi sakit. Gaktau serius apa engga. Tapi lambung gue kena, usus gue juga kena.

Minta doanya semoga besok sembuh ya soalnya besok mau ikutan lomba dari Deplu.

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Mau sharing photos juga. Udah lama gak share :)

Well, Thanks buat kalian yang udah nyempetin baca. Jangan mikir yang trashy tentang blog ini ya ;)

Mau curhat dikit, biasanya kalo udah malem gini, twitter user pada mabok. Menggunakan RT sebagai Reply Tweet bukan retweet. No offense tapi bener loh itu mengganggu. Mungkin simply unfollow aja kali ya biar gampang ;)

cheerio,

IFCW World Forum 2009

2009-10-27T20:15:00.002+07:00

Hey I'm back :)

I've got lotta story to tell but there won't be enough space so just skip the unimportant thing and straight to the time when I got into the IFCW World Forum 2009.

Okay I'll repeat it.

I GOT INTO IFCW WORLD FORUM 2009!!!!

WASN'T IT AWESOME???

I'll tell the whole story completely.

The World Forum 2009 is an annual conference that attracts leaders of non-governmental organizations from across the world. The World Forum enables delegate to discuss the rights and welfare of children and young people on a global scale, network and build partnerships with each other.

World Forum 2008 was held in Cardiff, Wales - UK and was attended by over 300 participants representing 30 countries.

Each conference is co-hosted by the IFCW and a membership organization, and the co-host for the World Forum 2009 is the Indonesian Child Welfare Foundation (YKAI - Yayasan Kesejahteraan Anak Indonesia).

Unfortunately, it was held in Jakarta. But that's alright, at least I won't leave my school :p

I got into the same room with Bona (SMAN 70) and Grace (SMUK 1) who are Christians so I had to pray alone :( But that's none of the matter since I forgot to have a breakfast at the second day. Yeah it was the foolest thing ever. Actually, Bona, Grace and I thought that the breakfast will be held just at the time when we gather in 9 o'clock. But the truth was, we had to have our own breakfast in restaurant with the coupons that had given to us at the first day. Poor us.

And the first plenary was so bored. Hell I was so sleepy and almost fell asleep but I realized that there were stand by cameras so I must not sleep!! LOL.

There was nothing more special in day 2 so just skip it.

Day 3.

It was the day when we were having a small discussion with the foreigners through Skype. With the Philippines, UK, and South Africans. My team had a conference with the South Africans but unfortunately, the Africans boy had a dark complexion. I used to thing to have a good relationship with the Africans since the South Africans have a fair complexion but I thought I will just turn that mind off :p

And day 3 used to be the most crucial night. Me and other 5 petition editors were having a midnight in lobby, worked on our petition. And it was also the time when we were getting closer for each other. We talked about things and used to mock on each other. It was fun and awesome.

Also, the thing that made that night become more awesome is, when we were chosen to read the petition. Since we were the ones who know the petition well, even though that petition was made by all youth in the conference by discussing with the youth foreigners around the world, but we were edit it and compiled it into one good petition.

Day 4.

I READ THE PETITION, IN FORNT OF THE ADULTS FROM THE WORLD FORUM, THE YOUTH AND THE PRESS!!!!!

Okay, it should be changed with 'WE'

That was the coolest moment ever. We represented the whole world! Pretty cool, eh?

Here's the petition :

And I didn't bring my camera so the photos will be updated soon!
Anyway, the next meeting of IFCW will be held in New York. Any of you interested? Feel free to register (the site will be delivered soon).

Bye, folks.

Regards,

Interview session

2009-10-04T09:03:00.003+07:00

Hi, lil' fairy how's your days?

I went to lotta towns this lebaran holiday. Actually I wasn't going for mudik but just for vacation. You know.. When people get bored of something, they might go on a vacation and mentioning this to you just a waste of time. Grr.

I'm not in the right mood to writing about something.

Why not posting photos?

What photos? My cellphone doesn't have camera built-in and my digicam is going nowhere with my sister. The only thing that left is my handycam but it's not a good thing to be shown-off.

Why not writing a story about your school?

What to write? I've started school since October 1st and I missed the second day of school just because of my additional vacation. Dad's wish. And on October 2nd, school was cooler because all of people there wore BATIK as their tops. Can you imagine? I want to be with them, wearing batik and take some pictures but I was on my vacation. Trash.

Ah and also big thanks to God that I've passed OSIS selection. One more step and voila!

And I also missed the day when they announced those who are passed.

And I....... Hey didn't I just mentioned lotta things?

Why not writing about your love life?

No comment.

Anyway, how's twitter world?

Getting worse everyday. I'm sick of people who use RT (the one that used to re-tweet someone's tweet) to replying one person's tweet. My eyes getting worse each day I see those 'RT' in timeline.

Plurking?

I have and... I hate having the worst cellphone that couldn't be used for accessing internet. Nyuhuhu each day I don't update my plurk.. karma will go down. And I, ofcourse, cannot updating my plurk in school days. Fck.

Why don't you buy a new cellphone? The one that could accessing internet?

I'm not a moneybag. And still begging for dad's kindness. Now I do my best so that I could get my outstanding certificate orderly.

I'm tired. Why don't we end this interview session?

I didn't ask you to interview me, moron. bye.

1430 H

2009-09-19T09:04:00.003+07:00

Hi there :)

Sepenggal lirik dari Tompi akan mengawali postingan kali ini *cailaaaaah*

Ramadhan datang alam pun riang
menyambut bulan yang berkah
umat berdendang kumandang azan
pertanda hati yang senang

Ramadhan Datang - Tompi

Sebulan yang lalu semua radio nyetelnya lagu itu terus *gak semua sih* kalo sekarang? Apa yang di setel? Lagu-lagu tentang lebaran ya? Mungkin lirik di atas akan berubah menjadi :

Ramadhan pergi alam pun muram
ditinggal bulan yang berkah
umat menangis kumandang azan
pertanda hati yang sedih

Maaf ya untuk Om Tompi. Gubahan ini seperlunya aja kok hanya untuk publikasi di blog :)

Karena pertanyaan yang selanjutnya melekat adalah :

Akankah sempat bertemu Ramadhan tahun depan? Tahun ini aja ibadahku belum full :(
Semoga aja dikasih kesempatan lagi untuk bertemu dengan Ramadhan tahun depan *aminnnn* Lalu pada kesempatan ini saya mau minta maaf sebesar-besarnya kepada oknum pembaca blog saya. Apabila ada post yang gak enak di hati, lupain aja. Cukup inget kalo besok itu LEBARAN *nyengir*

Minal Aidin semuanya. Ketemu lagi di Ramadhan taun depan!

Eh maksudnya saya akan tetep nulis kok :)

Regards,

999 and Goodbye~

2009-09-09T21:39:00.005+07:00

I am about to bankrupt

Well I'm wondering if I could turn back time, when I was with him. My best moments. It's sad, though. I broke up with him. For finally, I could take a deep breath and relaxed. Get focused on my competition and my study. Get focused on my self. No more problem. But more tears.

Shit.

I'm wondering why I couldn't get out of this shit? I wish I could stand still, happy like what I showed to 'em.

I'm a fake.

Whenever you see me smile, I am planning to suicide inside. I'm not lying. I'm crying while writing on this post.

Call me drama queen because of these fucking tears. But that's alrite. Rugrats and I are friends so it's okay if I cry that much.

Anyway, today is September 9th 2009. What a beautiful date to spend. And this is also my perfect day.

Thanks for being the best part of my life. I'm still loving you. I know you also still. But things forced us, rite? So don't you ever mind to ask for my help. I'd like to.

Bye, Taufan. I won't delete every post that mentioned about you or labeled by your name. I'll let those things as my memories. My never ending memories.

my best regards ever,

Heart please don't break

2009-09-06T09:22:00.004+07:00

These days I am begging, for the one that I love. These days I am dying, also for the one I love. I just didn't get it when people say "Love blinds people" But now I do realize that it was true, for sure.

I was once said that I will not begging for someone who breaks my heart.
It was a bullshit.

The truth is, I am begging him now. For his love. So I could feel the warm, I could feel the care.
What made this? I don't know. Love blinds people, rite?

So, if you read this, my dear beloved Typhoon, I LOVE YOU. PLEASE. I BEG YOU.

regards,

Another world

2009-09-04T20:49:00.003+07:00

Where can you find the blue sky?

Here, is the only answer.

Where can you find the most beautiful rainbow after rain?

Once again, here, is the only answer.

But where can you find your own happiness? Here? Not here? It's only you who can find your own answer.
If home is not the right answer, then go outside. Somewhere over the rainbow. Somewhere beyond the blue skies. Somewhere....

When you heart beats so fast. When your emotion goes up and down and suddenly you climb up the tree so the whole city can be seen clearly.
When you find your own world, your own happiness.
It's so priceless.

And I want to fly high, up on the sky. Hide behind those clouds with all little fairies that sing along with me. This is my world, friends. And no one would change it even a little.

This is my happiness.

Ah I found it so pointless. I'll make another one when my brain has cleared up from these mess. Crap.

Have a good day, Fella.
Au Revoir.

Worst September Ever

2009-09-03T15:56:00.002+07:00

Here is the way September comes.

well, oh, don't be sad, Indonesia. This is just a small obstacle ;)

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And now, I'm at my worst.

My stomach acts very naughty these days. Just imagine that I have to take 6 pills in a row! Moreover, I was get into doctor again and been given 4 additional medicines!!

Wooooooooooooot.

JURUS 71 AT COLAPSLE

2009-08-21T16:55:00.007+07:00

HELLO BLOGGIE :)

SELAMAT HARI KEMERDEKAAN INDONESIA YANG KE-64!

Done with my essay now I'm back with a thousand amusing stories :)

Tanggal 18 dan 19 Agustus 2009 kemarin, PPS Jurus 71 mengikuti pertandingan pencak silat yang diadakan oleh SMAN 54 Jakarta. Alhamdulillah dari 15 fighter, 3 orang berhasil mendapatkan perunggu. Hasil yang gak di duga untuk orang yang latihan seminggu dan intensif sehari. Selama seminggu ini gue gak sekolah dong asik banget ya? Hari Senin cuma upacara HUT RI, Selasa dan Rabu gue kesekolah hanya untuk tadarus setelah itu cabut ke Padepokan Pencak Silat TMII. Hari Kamis dan seterusnya adalah hari libur awal puasa :)

I have nothing to say but I have lot of pictures to show. Check 'em out!

yang ini ketua jurus

yang ini yang dapet perunggu :D

ini bukan fightnya tapi waktu rasyid lagi di 'ampal' sama jibay

Jadi yang dimaksud dengan 'ampal' itu menggunakan tenaga dalam untuk menahan serangan lawan

gue mau jaketnya!

"Jurus 71... BANZAI!"

Lalu berikutnya adalah foto foto saat pertandingan :

nah ini favorit gue, ceritanya waktu rengga (biru) mau dibanting, dia langsung menghindar dengan cara meloncat :D

Anyway, besok sudah mau puasa, gue mau minta maaf sama para pembaca blog gue sekalian ya. Semoga Puasa kali ini diberikan kelancaran. Amin :)

best regards,

DOXY

Mixxxx!

2009-08-14T20:28:00.003+07:00

kurma!

Tidak terasa mau bulan Ramadhan lagi. Hawa-hawanya aja udah terasa begini hihihi :3

Dan gue gak tau harus update apa. Hmm... Oiya minggu lalu gue ikutan lomba di LIA. Student Competition 2009, kategori SAY (Speech and Essay). Sesi pertama gue harus buat presentasi dari tema yang ditentuin. Ada 5 topik dan 3 dari topik-topik itu sukses bikin gue bingung. Bahasanya berat ditambah gue gak dapet pointnya. Akhirnya gue memilih topik yang paling gampang sedunia : "Change the environmental threats into a good opportunity for a better world"

Bah. Sebenernya gue disuruh ikut kompetisi ini udah 2 minggu sebelum hari H. Tapi gue baru nyiapin bahan-bahan tentang apa yang mau gue presentasiin pada saat hari H jam 4 pagi dalam keadaan ngantuk.

Jadi sehari sebelumnya gue nari di acara ExoBatica di Grand Indonesia dan baru sampe rumah jam setengah 12. Bayangkan gue hanya tidur 4 jam demi mengejar perlombaan yang sehari sebelumnya gue sempet mikir untuk resign.

Dan...

Congratulations.....

Gue juara pertama!

oke ini piala dunia emang lebay gue tapi biar keren deh :3

Terus gue jadi representative branch gue untuk lomba tingkat nasional. Sekarang gue harus bikin essay dengan tema yang berbeda dari presentasi gue. Deadline 20 Agustus. I'm going to working on it soon.
Kalo gue menang lagi di tingkat nasional, kesempatan gue untuk mewakili Indonesia jadi peserta Youth Conference di Eropa makin gede. Doain ya :)

Indonesia Unite

2009-07-19T23:01:00.007+07:00

Jumat, 17 Juli 2009

Jakarta Meledak Lagi. Mungkin lagu itu cocok untuk menggambarkan Jumat kelabu di Jakarta. Bayangkan saja, di pagi hari, sekitar pukul 07.40 WIB, ketika semua orang sedang memulai aktivitas mereka, ledakan besar itu terjadi. Hotel J. W. Marriot dan Ritz Carlton adalah dua tempat yang berprestise tinggi dan dua tempat itu pula yang menjadi sasaran peledakan kali ini.

Kedua kalinya untuk J. W. Marriot. Sungguh malang nasibmu, nak. Dampak yang terjadi banyaaaaaaak. Salah satunya untuk fans Manchester United di Jakarta. So sorry, The Red Devils won't show up tomorrow. They canceled their visits and also canceled their match versus PSSI. Don't be sad, Indonesia. This is just a little obstacle.

Tim dari Kapolri sudah berusaha sekuat tenaga untuk menemukan otak teror ini namun memang butuh waktu. Lalu apa yang gue lakukan? Gue sekarang mau menyampaikan bahwa kita gak boleh takut sama teroris.

Joel Madden aja mau kembali ke Indonesia, Austin Meyer juga ( I love them both, thanks for your supports ). Masa kita mau kalah sama teroris?

In this case....

Gerakan Indonesia Unite "Kami Tidak Takut" yang sekarang sedang membooming baik di account social network facebook maupun twitter. Mungkin beberapa dari kalian juga ada yang udah sempet nonton di TVOne atau Metro TV tadi siang. Di TVOne, gerakan ini di representasiin sama Pandji Pragiwaksono, host, comedian, singer.

Indonesia Unite adalah sebuah gerakan yang bisa dilakukan secara online maupun offline untuk menunjukkan kepada masyarakat dunia bahwa Indonesia Tidak Takut. Teroris tidak akan membuat kita jatuh. Ini justru akan membuat kita semua semakin kuat. Semakin maju. Dan seperti sepatah kata yang pernah gue denger waktu training ESQ beberapa saat yang lalu,

Suatu saat, matahari itu akan terbit dari timur. Dan kalian semua tahu dimana timur itu berada. Itulah Indonesia. Indonesia akan bangkit karena memiliki pemuda-pemuda seperti kalian.

Indonesia Unite gak cuma buat orang yang punya account twitter atau facebook aja. Buat kalian yang gak punya, dukung Indonesia dengan mengibarkan bendera merah putihmu itu setinggi tingginya. Kalau perlu sampai kelihatan dari satelit di atas sana *wiiih lebay*. Juga dengan menggunakan produk-produk Indonesia, makan makanan Indonesia, memulai untuk mencintai bahasa Indonesia (gue juga lagi belajar untuk lebih sering berbahasa Indonesia di social networking), dan banyak hal lainnya. Inget, ya. Indonesia needs it youths. Kita adalah harapannya. Kalau kita cuma bisa diam dan takut, teroris akan ketawa dan tambah seneng.

Daripada bikin teroris seneng, mendingan bikin papahmamah seneng dengan berbakti kepada negara. Ya gak?

So, Indonesia Unite, We Are Not Afraid.

fyi : Masyarakat Sipil Anti Kekerasan menggelar doa utk korban bom di depan Ritz Carlton, besok 11.00. Let's tweet together there! #indonesiaunite (via Enda)

July comes

2009-07-10T09:05:00.003+07:00

Gue lagi males berbahasa Inggris. Gue lagi males untuk beraktivitas. Gue sebenernya males untuk ngepost. Tapi berhubung gue bosan, ada laptop nganggur, dan ini LIBURAN! jadi, gue memutuskan untuk ber posting-posting ria sebelum liburan yang nyatanya memang cuma sebentar ini berakhir. Posting kali ini..... gue kangen sama nenek gue ;(

Sebelum nulis ini, gue sempet buka laptop bokap dan nemuin beberapa foto liburan-setelah-lebaran gue bersama keluarga besar dari nyokap. Tepatnya tanggal 11-12 oktober 2008, di cibodas. Gue seneng banget waktu itu, soalnya gue bisa terbebas dari belenggu yang udah sebulan gue alamin. Bukan bermaksud untuk menjadi tidak ikhlas. Tapi perasaan gue bilang, gue capek ngurusin nenek gue yang lagi sakit. Well, itu mungkin udah kewajiban gue sebagai cucu yang kebetulan, pas bulan puasa, banyak liburnya. Tapi gue juga gak nyangkal kalau gue bosen, jenuh.

Aktivitas gue sehari-hari selama bulan puasa tuh, sahur, ke rumah nenek gue (jaraknya cuma 20 meter dari rumah gue), nemenin dia sampe kakek gue pulang solat subuh berjamaah di masjid, kadang harus nurutin permintaannya yang aneh-aneh, harus ganti popoknya, harus mandiin dia, ambilin makan, minum, dan sampe kakek gue pulang, gue baru bisa pulang dan tidur di rumah. Setelah buka puasa juga, gue harus standby disana. untuk nemenin nenek gue yang sendirian karena kakek gue emang doyan banget ke mesjid. Kadang, gue suka dipanggil dadakan, soalnya nenek gue mau ganti popok, dan emang gue yang ahli dalam hal itu.

Beberapa hari sebelum lebaran, nenek gue sempet di bawa ke rumah sakit untuk di rawat inap. Hasilnya? badannya langsung seger begitu kena cairan infus. Baru beberapa hari di rumah sakit, nenek gue merengek minta pulang. homesick katanya. dan dia takabur, merasa sudah pulih sepenuhnya.

Dua hari sebelum lebaran, nenek gue pulang dari rumah sakit dalam kondisi bugar. Gue seneng banget. Dia bahkan sempet ngetawain gue karena gabisa ngulek. Dan akhirnya dia yang gantiin gue buat ngulek bumbu semur. hihi

Nenek gue yang saat itu masih lebih kuat daripada gue, esoknya gabisa bangun dari tempat tidur. Ia cuma bisa terbaring, seperti kondisi awalnya. Dan pekerjaan gue pun kembali lagi.

Gue inget banget, pas lebaran, nyokap gue sampe ga solat id, dia solat id di rumah nenek gue, sambil ngejagain nenek gue. Selesai solat, nyokap bilang dia lansung nyalain tv mau liat siaran langsung solat id di mekah. terus ga berapa lama dia balik ke kamar nenek gue dan ngeliat mulut nenek gue bergerak dan dia sadar akan panggilan panggilan hari kemenangan yang ia dengar dari tv. subhanallah.

Gue pulang. Dan langsung ke rumah nenek gue, nyamperin nyokap, dan gantian ngejagain nenek. Gue duduk disamping tempat tidurnya. Lalu dia minta tolong gue untuk didudukkan. Dan gue bantu. Dia minta makan, gue bikinin dan gue suapin, tapi dia cuma mau makan dikit. Miris, banget. Akhirnya dengan segala bujuk rayu gue, dia mau makan lagi. Gaberapa lama kakek & bokap gue pulang. Mereka pulang belakangan soalnya halal bi halal dulu di mesjid. Setelah salaman minta maaf sama kakek gue, yang secara eksklusif menghampiri gue di kamar nenek gue (harusnya kan gue yg ngehampirin kakek gue untuk minta maaf), kakek gue mengusap kepala gue, lalu menutup mulutnya dengan sorban, kemudian terisak. Kontan gue nangis. Gue tau kenapa dia begitu. Gue tau banget apa yang dia rasain ketika ngeliat istrinya duduk tak berdaya.

Setelah itu yang gue inget, gue kembali mengganti popok nenek gue, lalu menemaninya tidur.

"Gua kepanasan. Kipasin, wiiiid. Kipasin...." suara nenek gue yang merintih kepanasan buat gue bangun dan sigap menyalakan kipas angin yang ada di kamarnya. Tapi dia bilang, "jangan pake kipas angin. pake kipas tangan." lalu gue nurut. gue kipasin dia pake kipas tangan. sambil bersimpuh di lantai, memiringkan kepala ke tempat tidurnya, dan mengipasinya. sampai ia tertidur. dan gue kembali menangis.

gue melewati lebaran tahun itu dengan tinggal dan berjaga untuk nenek gue. sedikit takut untuk ninggalin dia waktu nyokap gue ngajak berlebaran ke rumah nenek yang satu lagi. gue gatau lagi saiapa yang bisa pakein popoknya, bersihin badannya setelah buang air. tapi ini kan lebaran, momen yang udahgue tunggu, akhirnya gue tinggalin nenek gue, sementara. dan ternyata emang butuh gue untuk ganti popoknya.

beberapa hari setelah itu, nenek gue kembali di rawat di rs tapi cuma bertahan beberapa hari. dia homesick.

dan, tanggal 11 oktober 2008, ketika akhirnya gue memutuskan untuk pergi ke cibodas, gue mengucapkan selamat tinggal kepada nenek gue. di kamarnya, dia sedang berbaring menghadap tembok, gue deketin, gue pegang tangannya, dan berbisik, "nyak, wida mau pergi dulu ya ke cibodas, besok wida pulang, ya." "iya..." jawabnya. dan gue gatau kalau itu adalah dialog terakhir gue dengan beliau.

Malamnya, di cibodas, entah kenapa gue jadi kangeeeeeeeeen banget sama dia. Gue nyium bau popoknya *aneh ya?*. Dan esoknya, nyokap gue pulang duluan ninggalin gue sama adek gue di cibodas. bokap emang ga ikut. siangnya, di perjalanan pulang, nyokap telfon dan bilang kalau nenek gue udah gak ada. DAN HARI ITU GUE MERASAKAN PENYESALAN YANG SEDALAM DALAMNYA. untuk apa selama ini gue ada untuk beliau, tapi gabisa nemenin beliau di saat terakhirnya? gue merasa useless, pengorbanan gue selama ini seakan akan gaberarti lagi. andai gue bisa ngulang waktu, gue mau kembali ke masa itu, ketika gue memutuskan untuk pergi ke cibodas. gue mau kembali dan membatalkan ini semua. gue mau nemenin Beliau sampai saat terakhir. disamping beliau disaat kritisnya, bukan ketika ia telah terbujur kaku dibungkus kafan.

I Miss You, Grannie ;(

Sampe sekarang, saat dimana gue nulis post ini, air mata yang jatuh ini akan menjadi bukti betapa gue sayang sama dia :)

may you have the most beautiful place, there

Fine

2009-06-28T19:39:00.006+07:00

so, howd'ya do all? I am terribly fine these days.

Here are some recent news from me :

1. After long and tiring practice, my saman team got the first prize in Cakrawala. Thanks God. I just can't believe that since it was our first competition but hey, it means we had a chance to be counted as one of the best team, right? LOL

here are some photos of us :

2. I AM NOW MAJORING IN SCIENCE :D

BIG THANKS TO ALLAH SWT, and be in the top 5 really is exciting :D

3. So, to all of my 'must watched' movies, goodbye for good. I can't watch it. But still, hoping.

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Anyway, I found these things at tumblr

howd'ya think?

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So that's all for this post. Hmm, I gotta find some breakfasts. Ah! Stomachache! Bye :D

Question

2009-06-17T05:32:00.001+07:00

kapaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan? the question that will never be answered. *sigh, too busy for Cakrawala, Sevone, and other jobs that waiting for me. I miss the time when I sit in coziness while ate pop corns and had a good movie in eyes.

I WANT HOLIDAY!

Fellas On The Road

2009-06-10T11:19:00.005+07:00

Loh kenapa layoutnya? Kok gini? Kok bolong?

Jadi, begini ceritanya, mau mendesign ulang blog ini dan alhamdulillah header udah jadi dan lumayan bagus kok hasilnya. Masih banyak yg harus dipelajari lagi dan gue rasa buat maintenance kali ini layout gue pindahin ke yg lama aja. Jadi ya gak ribet juga sih kan lumayan simple. Wish me luck for the new layout :D

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Sooooo, finally end of all those freakin' examination and now I can take some rest at home and become a couch potato LOL.
The results? Not bad, 3 remedies and I broke my promise to Mrs. Sri (my economy teacher) to not get any economy remedies for this last examination. But what have I done? 65 for Economy. Thanks God. I was ashamed and surely didn't know what to do. But, hey, take a look at the bright side, we don't need economy's score to pass science, do we?

So, I decided to come with Fellas to Monas last week on Sunday, June 7th 2009, by bicycle.
Start at Reza's house near my school then off to Monas.

What to say? TIRED, and that's all, because pictures speak better :D

at MONAS (look at Ishey!)

the boys

aaaa I'm too afraid to try this (I took this one)

while searching for some breakfasts

wanna be like the statue :P

the girls (uninclude Kezhia and Lucia)

at Suropati

we were having blast! and upcoming event is fellas on the road part two, will be held this month, but we haven't decide the date yet.

see you around, folks :D

What I want&Recently

2009-05-29T00:58:00.002+07:00

give it to me!

today is the fifth day of my final test and so far, the score was good. still 2 more days to be passed and I can enjoy my holiday *scream*
wish me luck, buddies :)

FYI

2009-05-23T18:09:00.005+07:00

Here's some FYI's things :

My final test will be hold on May 25th which means, tomorrow is my last day to have fun. and it will be hold for 7 days! can you imagine that? TEST ON SATURDAY. and we skip Sunday, of course. but, hey. wtf.
Kris Allen won the American Idol season 8
I terribly hate today's dialogue and acts especially when me and my boyf headed from his house to mine. cross finger to them. sheet.

Sindikat Anak Cabut Sekolah

2009-05-16T09:32:00.004+07:00

Kamis, 14 Mei 2009

Dengan tekad bulat membara akhirnya gue putuskan untuk izin pulang pada jam istirahat. Gue ngajak Ai, yang kebetulan juga dia mau nonton drama di SMP dia yang kebetulan juga dia adalah mentor dari tim drama tersebut. Dengan alasan sakit dan mau pergi ke dokter, gue dan Ai langsung meluncur ke SMP nya Ai. Sampe disana, kita berdua nonton dramanya. Menurut gue? No comment deh.

Disitu gue kenalan (enggak kenalan juga sih) sama Pak Agus, guru SMP Ai yang sumpah baik banget.

Pak Agus (P) : i kamu mau hokben ga?
Ai (A) : mau pak emang ada?
P : tuh ambil di tas bapak. berdua sama temen kamu ya. tapi jangan bilang-bilang soalnya buat anak properti tuh
A : oke pak :D

Lumayan. Makan siang gratis.

Dari 139 meluncur ke rumah Ai. Sempet ditanya sama kakaknya kenapa kita pulang cepet. Tapi kita harus jujur dan berani. Ai pun bilang kenyataannya ke kakaknya. Untung kakaknya baik.

Ganti baju dan meluncur ke rumah gue.

Sempet bingung mau pake tas yang mana soalnya kemaren kan baru di beliin tas sama mamah mertua tapi kok ga nyambung ya sama bajunya yaudah akhirnya pake D&G item punya nyokap haha.

Meluncur ke McD untuk nunggu jemputan. Sebelumnya mampir ke Cindy dulu sambil nunggu dijemput. Di Cindy gue dan Ai hampir menjatuhkan se-rak penuh dengan pajangan yang kakinya cuma satu. Mungkin kita gak di ridhoi untuk cabut.

Jemputan datang. Ternyata gue pergi dengan orang-orang ini :

Pas gue duduk, Fadhil ngomong :

F : hayo bandel banget lo cabut
W : yee emang gue gak tau lo semua juga pada cabut pm kan? paraaaah
F : anrit tau darimana?
W : pipit haha
F : sialan

Tapi kemana Rudy? Katanya dia mau nyusul ke McD tapi kok ga sampe-sampe?

Akhirnya sampe juga tuh anak satu.

Pas dia sampe, Fadhil langsung majuin mobil dan nyamperin dia. Akhirnya dia masuk, terus Fadhil ngomong :

F : rud, gue kebelet nih gue mampir ke rumah lo dulu ya
R : hah? sialan

HAHAHA maaaf ya rud kita gak bermaksud apa-apa kok. Tapi gajadi kok tuh ke rumah Rudynya langsung saja menuju MOI. Syuuuuuuuuung.

Sampe MOI.

Kita jalan-jalan dulu sambil nunggu filmnya mulai. FYI, kita mau nonton My Bloody Valentine 3D.

Yang gue gatau film apa itu, genrenya apa, and so on. Berhubung tiketnya udah dibeliin sama anak KI yang cewek, jadi kita ke Gramed aja.

Gue sama Ai ke bagian komik, Fadhil sama Dimboy ke bagian novel, Taufan sama Rudy di bagian yang gue gaktau apaan.

Selesai beli komik, gue sama Ai nyamperin Taufan-Rudy. Pas gue sampe tempat mereka, eh nge-gap Rudy lagi megang buku, yang, gue rasa gausa disebutin judulnya, yang berhubungan dengan seksologi. Untung Taufan enggak. HAHA. Dan buku itu beneran dibeli sama dia. Dasar bokep lo, Rud.

Baiklah akhirnya kita nonton juga. My Bloody Valentine yang ternyata film Thriller. Dikit-dikit bacok, dikit-dikit bunuh. Anjrit. Dan itu TIGA DIMENSI. Tapi seru, for sure.

Pulangnya,
Nganterin Rudy pulang dulu. Rumah Rudy terhitung deket sama rumah gue, tapi Fadhilnya ngajakin makan dulu. Yaudah mana mungkin gue nolak dong. Apalagi gue inget pas Taufan bilang mau ke D' Cost. Dan ditambah lagi Fadhil bilang mau ke Kemang. Ayok deh pulang malem juga gapapa udah izin ini.

Ternyata,

Thanks ya, Dhil. Ckck tapi berhubung dibayarin gue gak ngomel. Sampe rumah jam 9, Ai nginep di rumah gue.

DAN GUE KANGEN BANGET HARI ITU ADUH MAU LAGI DOOOOONG!

all i want is you oh my hot

2009-05-07T23:46:00.008+07:00

gue lagi concern sama penyanyi cowok yang ga cuma tampangdoang tapi suara juga oke. jadi gue putusin untuk bikin top rank versi gue sendiri ya. tapi tebak ya siapa aja orang orangnya. let's start with number five :)

5. Cowok yang satu ini mulai eksis di dunia permusikan internasional setelah jadi runnerup Amerian Idol season tujuh kalo gasalah. gue rasa sih yang bikin dia jadi runner up itu karena mukanya imut imut kaya anak kecil ~~minta digampar~~. no offense ya buat kamu kamu yang suka sama dia. but still, suaranya oke. yang bikin gue jatuh cinta sama dia itu pertama karena mukanya dan yang kedu a baru suaranya. itulah kenapa gue menempatkan dia di posisi nomor lima. ada yang tau siapa dia?

4. Untuk yang nomer empat, gue udah naruh perhatian sama dia lamaaaaaa banget. dan sekali lagi entah kenapa gue ngeliat fisik dulu baru kualitas. eitttss jangan berpindah channel dulu kawan-kawan sekalian karena orang bilang, fisik itu cermin hati (bener gak?). Karena gue gak begitu concern sama suaranya yang ternyata, setelah di denger itu enak banget men. Gue punya kedua albumnya. Clue buat yang satu ini, dia udah ngeluarin dua album (bareng sama bandnya), terus ciri khas dari albumnya yang pertama yaitu liriknya panjang-panjang (lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off), tapi album yang kedua ini beda dari album pertama dan namanya juga sesuai, Pretty Odd. Ada yang tau?

3. Okay kalo yang ini baru gue malahan gatau yang mana yang nyanyi sebelum gue liat sendiri videoclip pertamanya, Sugar We're Going Down diputar di MTV 3 tahun yang lalu. Vokalis band ini badannya gempal (dulu) sekarang agak kurusan deh kayanya. Suaranya asli enak dan punya karakter (sotoy bang). video clipnya juga bagus-bagus. lagunya yang paling nempel di gue yang A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More 'Touch' Me. Sayang banget waktu dia dan grup bandnya ngadain konser di Jakarta (kurang lebih) dua tahun yang lalu gue gabisa dateng berhubung bulan puasa dan bokek -_-. Ada yang tau siapakah gerangan dirinya?

2. Nah ini yang kedua! Aduh gue yakin elo semua pasti tau siapa dia. pertama kali denger tentang dia itu pas temen gue yang handphone nya udah canggih nyetel lagunya dia pas istirahat di kelas. Lagu dia yang pertama kali gue denger itu yang judulnya Yeah. Dan apa yang terlintas dipikiran gue adalah ini lagu ya liriknya cuman yeah doang. Ternyata eh ternyata... berhubung temen gue itu hpnya cuma mentok di wav, jadi yang terekam disitu cuman yang yeah nya doang. Begitulah pengalaman kelas 5 sd ku yang tak kulupa. Black people dan suaranya canggih banget. 4 stars to him! album terakhirnya berjudul Here I Stand. Ayo tau ga?

1. And this is the hottest male singer ;)

Pertama kali tau Ne-yo waktu denger lagunya yang berjudul So Sick. Saat itu juga langsung jatuh cintrong dan dalam waktu beberapa hari aja udah afal. Oh tidak dan sekarang gue ketagihan Miss Independent :D
Then that's all for my version. No offense ya buat kalian yang menyukai penyanyi yang gue taruh di urutan bawah. kan menurut gue. okay :)
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25 Mei gue ulangan blok 3 dan minggu depan libur dari tanggal 11-13 Mei. Lah kapan belajarnya coba? ini aja udah tengah malem belum nyelesain lks Biologi -__-
males banget rasanya mau belajar pas anak kelas 3 udah mau lulus. jadi ikut-ikutan mau lulus. yang kalo telat udah gabakal dimarahin lagi. aduh cepetan lulus dong, tapi nilainya juga bagus dong hehe :D

oiya 4 orang selain Ne-yo nya udah dapet belom? okay ini dia jawabannya :

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Okay that's all for today. Doain semoga kedepannya gue bisa lebih baik. Lagi pengen jadi anak pinter tanpa belajar nih hehe. Bye folks :)

cheers,

D

Award jalan jalan lagi nih

2009-04-25T11:40:00.002+07:00

1. Letakkan logo di blog Anda

2. Tulis link blog yang memberi Anda award
Riris

3. Berikan kembali award kepada 10 blogger yang dianggap paling friendly dan inspiratif dan buat link mereka di postingan anda.
Amandia, Prima, Winnie, Ir.Fan, Alviss, Dee, Cendo l, Sisil, Isna, Luci

4. Supaya mereka tau.. Coba kasih tahu melalui comment posting mereka atau di kotak pesan.

L'oreal Girl Science Camp 2009

2009-04-25T10:34:00.006+07:00

Haaaaaaah finally LGSC 2009 selesai. Okay and the result was.. My tim wasn't the winner. But we had so much fun, though. I don't want to talk much but pictures maybe could explain well ;)

second day

heyaaaaaaaaa i'm gonna miss you all ; )

congratulations to SMA BHK Jakarta, SMA 99 Jakarta, SMA 3 Yogyakarta : )

for my first year anniversary update? later on, baby. some things have to be cleaned up, bye!

For my conclusion

2009-04-20T10:48:00.002+07:00

I've just read Ishey's post titled Unknown Quote and have just commented to it. For my conclusion, according to me,

LOVE is when letter U and V are vanished so there will be W after T. So close. That close. I wish we could be that close.

Reality check!

There are still U and V between T and W. Yeah means we are not close enough.

But wait.

Not close enough? In face, maybe. But in heart? I don't think so :)

Well I'm too happy to say that tomorrow is our day. Happy almost one-year anniversary, my T-BOY.
hopefully we get more close just like S (first letter on my first name) and T (his first letter on his first name).

ps.meloveyou

Recently..

2009-04-16T07:33:00.001+07:00

Here are some recent updates :

Still 5 days to go to April 21st 2009. I can't wait!
My team won the semi-final for L'oreal Girl Science Camp 2009, and next week we are going to go to Taman Bunga Mekarsari for the trainee. Wish us luck, buddy : )
Well, after a long waiting, finally I got the chance to be second team of Saman dance. This new team will be presented at the 12th grade's graduation. Also wish us luck : )
I felt pain all over my body. Before and after practicing Saman. The weather was bad and i can not handle it : (
Hey, folks, you know that LOVE is a bond? i just knew it ;)

I've to take a rest. See you around, folks!

Confused

2009-04-10T19:03:00.002+07:00

this one?

or this one?

both, i think...

April greetings

2009-04-09T09:09:00.003+07:00

this is my first post in April. Hello everyone!

last Friday, my friend, Ishey, had her first year anniversary with her boyfriend and celebrated it. she made a handmade shirt and gave it to hers. inspired me to make one.

so, what would i do? countdown and... eleven days left to my first year anniversary. i still don't know what to do, either what to give. *sigh

any idea?